Saturday, February 28, 2009

~away for exams~

Finally, I've received my exam slip yesterday, sort of CONFIRMING that all this is true.
and no, i won't be shouting into any pillow this time.
I can't believe that 5 years past in a blink of an eye..
okay, maybe several blinks..
Shu Juen was already talking about missing university life..
i think i'll be missing it too...

Anyway, meanwhile,
I'm just keeping my fingers crossed.....
Praying hard that everything will go through well...
and hoping that i will not screw up...

Mr Jeevanan, our ENT consultant, said that:
'Examiners don't fail students. Students fail themselves.'
I guess there is some truth in what he said.
When under exam stress, students (including me) do all sorts of funny things.
Even a very good or average student, when panic, make mistakes in exams,
and some mistakes, being very unforgivable..

The last mock exam i had,
well, it didn't went really well...
(and guess what? it was videotaped and all! and yes, my coursemates get to view it in dk1 and well, 'learn from my mistakes'.. )
Prof Shahrir was like: shinyin, what happened to you?

The next exam, the real one, would be even more stressful,
You get thought block when four examiners stare straight into you,
watching you examine the patient,
pressuring you to answer the questions,
as the time keeps ticking....

So much at stake...

But i suppose,
we have to learn how to manage anxiety, stress...
how can we manage patients if we ourselves get over anxious, no?
i really hope i can maintain composure, calmness..
breathing exercise....

Will be giving it all my best for the next three weeks...
Wish me good luck! =)
(i desperately need in this time)

All the best to all my coursemates,
hope we'll all pass this with smiles ^^

p/s: Will be fasting from the internet for a while~
Please do not abandon me.. :)

Saturday, February 21, 2009

周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢 MV Eng Sub

Scent sent me a link which suppose to elevate my mood today.
Funny, i end up in tears, instead.
But that's besides the point.
So, if you are not feeling too depressed, i'll like to share a rather touching video with you...
Guess what? It even had English Subtitles.. ^^ (especially for the ones with weak Chinese language command like me)


p/s: It's a very simple song.Yet it portrays the emotion of losing. Like sometimes you hang on to something, trying your best not to let go. It starts with a calm melancholic tone, solo piano, single chords. Then the sad violin come in. Then the other strings comes in, creating a climax of confusion, struggling. You ran out of breathe asking questions with no answers. You tried making up answers to fill in the gap. You tried to put the blame on yourself. The drums plays a beat. The beats added pace, momentum.. the you feel the lost, the pain sips in, the feeling of wanting to hold on rips you apart. Repeated notes tried to calm you, yet the moment had past, the lost is there. and you realized, things will never be the same again.
(or at least that was what i felt.. sorry, very emo today...)

p/ss: ShinLoo & Sook Jiuan, do you still remember how crazy we were over Jay Chau during high school? silly right? i think what's interesting about Jay (in my personal opinion), is that he's just like a regular guy next door. Not exceptionally good looking, or having awesome vocals, yet his songs can touch your hearts and leave footprints behind. He is somewhat different.

Wang Lee Hom, on the other hand, is almost flawless... haha... but i'll leave that for another day ^^

p/sss: i did feel a little kesian for the grand piano... between those grass... (rosaklar, the piano...)

Friday, February 20, 2009


I did a very interesting short case today.... the chest x-ray findings lagi interesting!
take a guess~

Thursday, February 19, 2009


Tagged by Borneo Falcon

1. Have you ever been on TV?
As the background of some TV program, you know like one of the public walking past, or one of the many people waving back.. haha! maybe..

2. Have you ever sung in public?
Does the incident in Korea count? haha! don't wanna talk about it! i still blame Aland for that..

3. Have you ever dyed your hair blond?
No. Should i try some day?

4. Have you ever eaten frogs' legs?
No. i've never had one of those exotic food.

5. Have you ever received a present that you really hated?

6. Have you ever walked into a lamp post?

7. Have you ever cooked a meal by yourself for more than 15 people?
(do sandwiches count? haha!) No. Cook with others for more than 15 people or cook by myself for less than 15 people, maybe.

8. Have you ever fallen or stumbled in front of others?
All the time. i don't know why. i thought my parents forgotten to teach me how to walk.

9. Have you ever done volunteer work?
Of course!

I am tagging YOU! (yes, you, if you have a blog and if you like to do tags or if you're feeling bored today)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Running Time: 2 Hours 46 Minutes,
Distributor: Warner BROS. Pictures
Cast: Brad Pitt, Cate Blanchett, Taraji P. Henson, Tilda Swinton, Jason Flemyng, Elias Koteas
Director: David Fincher
From the author: F. Scott Fitzgerald

i read the short story of The Curious Case of Benjamin Button which was recommended by shinLoo before i watch the movie. Yes, i am the kind of person who likes to read before watching a movie (well, except for Lord of The Rings- cause i find that a little too sedative for me.. with the super ancient and mystic vocabulary)... i liked painting the picture with the mind.. nothing beats the imagination, i suppose..

I had several feedback of this movie... not very inviting ones though.. most people claimed that this movie was so boring that it put them to sleep!! (well, peanut said he slept through the movie, and in scent's case - 3 times)... so, it was pretty hard to convince anyone to watch this movie with me.... Thank God, someone downloaded it...

I find the short story interesting.. i find the movie even better... i think it's one of the best after Forest Gump.. (shinyin standing up to say this) --> i would certainly recommend this to everyone!! okay, maybe not everyone.. maybe to those who liked movies like Forrest Gump and Atonement..

The movie is a story, by F. Scott Fitzgerald about a Man who lived his life backwards. A man, like any of us, who is unable to stop time. While everyone was aging, he was growing younger. A tale of living, loving, and losing.. i wouldn't like to give away too much of the movie or the story, i think you should watch it for yourself. It's like Kimchi- whether you love it, or hate it!

There was one loophole though. This movie failed to explain the most importmant part of the title: the curious case- the strange illness or biological nature of Mr Button who was aging backwards. The movie merely swept us off and distracted with picturesques artistic themes and overflowing emotions that the logic part was not adressed.

Other recommended good read: Pride & Prejudice (the movie by Kiera Knightley was awesome! i wonder how's the story...) - will find time...

p/s:i was attending a talk by the MMC this morning, when the speaker said : 'You have to renew your licience every year after full registration. It's not auto-renewable. You now, like your driving licience, you'll have to renew it yourself' (she said with a sinister smile)... then i was like S-H-I-T!!!! i opened my wallet and stared at the numbers: 06/01/2004-05/01/2009....... my driving licience had expired 1 month ago!!! i've been driving with an expired driving licience for the past one whole month! it's a good thing i didn't get a ticket during the festive season. i tried to convince Aland that 'not having a driving licience' and 'having an expired driving licience' is two totally different things! i can't be sure how serious would the offense be, if i ever got caught (touch wood!). - will renew my driving licience tomorrow..

Mrs Maple:
Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?

Benjamin Button: Along the way you bump into people who make a dent on your life. Some people get struck by lightning. Some are born to sit by a river. Some have an ear for music. Some are artists. Some swim the English Channel. Some know buttons. Some know Shakespeare. Some are mothers. And some people can dance.

Daisy: Would you still love me if I were old and saggy?
Benjamin Button:
Would you still love ME if I were young and had acne? When I'm afraid of what's under the bed? Or if I end up wetting the bed?

Benjamin Button:
I'm always lookin' out my own eyes.

Captain Mike: You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.

my favourite segment from the movie, i liked the way the shot was taken.... and it enhanced something i once believed very much in, that 'everything happens for some reason' :

Benjamin Button:
Sometimes we're on a collision course, and we just don't know it.
Whether it's by accident or by design, there's not a thing we can do about it.
A woman in Paris was on her way to go shopping,
but she had forgotten her coat - went back to get it.
When she had gotten her coat, the phone had rung, so she'd stopped to answer it; talked for a couple of minutes.
While the woman was on the phone, Daisy was rehearsing for a performance at the Paris Opera House.
And while she was rehearsing, the woman, off the phone now, had gone outside to get a taxi.
Now a taxi driver had dropped off a fare earlier and had stopped to get a cup of coffee.
And all the while, Daisy was rehearsing.
And this cab driver, who dropped off the earlier fare; who'd stopped to get the cup of coffee, had picked up the lady who was going to shopping, and had missed getting an earlier cab.
The taxi had to stop for a man crossing the street, who had left for work five minutes later than he normally did, because he forgot to set off his alarm.
While that man, late for work, was crossing the street, Daisy had finished rehearsing, and was taking a shower.
And while Daisy was showering, the taxi was waiting outside a boutique for the woman to pick up a package, which hadn't been wrapped yet, because the girl who was supposed to wrap it had broken up with her boyfriend the night before, and forgot.

When the package was wrapped, the woman, who was back in the cab, was blocked by a delivery truck, all the while Daisy was getting dressed.
The delivery truck pulled away and the taxi was able to move, while Daisy, the last to be dressed, waited for one of her friends, who had broken a shoelace.
While the taxi was stopped, waiting for a traffic light, Daisy and her friend came out the back of the theater.
And if only one thing had happened differently: if that shoelace hadn't broken; or that delivery truck had moved moments earlier; or that package had been wrapped and ready, because the girl hadn't broken up with her boyfriend; or that man had set his alarm and got up five minutes earlier; or that taxi driver hadn't stopped for a cup of coffee; or that woman had remembered her coat, and got into an earlier cab, Daisy and her friend would've crossed the street, and the taxi would've driven by.

But life being what it is - a series of intersecting lives and incidents, out of anyone's control - that taxi did not go by, and that driver was momentarily distracted, and that taxi hit Daisy, and her leg was crushed.

Monday, February 16, 2009

CNY #6: How to make Chocolate Chip Cookies

Since we are still in the New Year mood, well, it least i am...
Here's another cookie we made last Chinese New Year.....
Chocolate Chip Cookies...

1. Firstly, sieve the flour and baking powder.

2. Mix butter and sugar in a mixer until fluffy.
Then fold in flour.

After that, fold in the delicious chocolate chips!
The thing about home made biscuits is that you get to choose the fillings and toppings
-whichever type you like
-and how much you like

and i loved it with LOTs of chocolate chips!! Lots! ^^

colourful toppings- rice candies...

Chocolate rice

and more Chocolate chips!!

and that's my greedy brother...
curi makan chocolate chips ==

Arrange paper cups in lines on a baking tray
(MUST be red color for the extra good luck! hehe..)

Put the batter in the cup

There you go... all lined up...

Bake in the oven...


and that's how you make Chocolate Chip cookies ^^

Sunday, February 15, 2009

i carry your heart, i carry it in my heart....

It took me a while whether to change my header,
and i did, several times...

My Valentine's probably started like this....

with a Forensic Exam...
cramming all the facts in my head...
Hangging, Strangulation, Drowning, Burns, Lightning, Road Traffic Accidents, Gun-shoot wounds, sudden deaths,
Signs of death, post-mortem changes, types of wounds,
hypostasis, contact whitening, time of death,
rigor mortis, cadaveric spasm, color changes, Casper's Dictum,
Adipocere, Mummification, Maceration,
Cause, Manner, Mode,
Natural, Homicide, Suicide, Accidental...
child abuse, abortion, sexual crime, surgical procedure associated,
medico-legal aspects,
etc, etc, etc...

don't get me wrong,
Forensic is very interesting...
but i just hate exams,
that's all...
and i was sick,
so very sick...
AEBA secondary to URTI,
with a terrible flu,
a painful throat...
yup, i was falling sick, with forennnsicccc...
and of all day,

i can't decide which is worse,
not having a person to share valentine's,
or having a person, but not having to share it with him/her...
or sharing it with someone you don't really liked...
breaking up on Valentine's?
or losing your loved ones to God on Valentines..

i did wonder for a moment,
whether Valentine's was Satan's evil idea,
and therefore Singles Awareness Day
and Black Day
were created.....

Anyway, my day improved,
i went shopping later in the evening..
i think i overcame the anti-valentine's feelings..
but i also i think i overspent...
well, i didn't think so when i was spending though..

anyway, back to my header...
i thought this was nice...

but hey,
whether single or attached,
whether together or apart,
whether if he's across the ocean,
Valentine's is a time for Love...
please don't hate Valentines..

so here's a poem,
by E E Cummings:

(so i had this in my mind, and designed a new header...)

i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate
(for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)


Saturday, February 14, 2009

Happy Singles Awareness Day!

Happy Valentines to all that celebrates!
and for the rest of us, here's a Valentine Survival Kit for you... ^^

Happy Singles Awareness Day!

Found this interesting site:

In response to the huge push by retailers for us to buy all of their candy, flowers and greeting cards February 15 has been declared Singles Awareness Day! This is the day that all of the single people can proudly stand up and show that it is OKAY to be single!

Sure, some people would prefer to have their February celebration on February 14, but the rest of us appreciate the break from the commercialism.

The goal of Singles Awareness Day is to let singles have celebrations, get-togethers, etc. and to exchange gifts with their single friends. The awareness day was established by single people who were just sick of feeling left out on Valentine's Day, and support of the day is growing every year.

Suggested activities for this day are sending yourself flowers, planning parties for other singles to mix and meet and to participate in some sort of single's event. This is especially recommended if you don't WANT to be single. Of course, for those who kind of like being single it's a blessing and a reason to have some fun!

Originally, most singles referred to February 14 as Single's Awareness Day (acronym: SAD) until it just became too depressing! Choosing the next day allowed single people a chance to turn this into a celebration rather than a festival of self-pity or whatever they were doing before. It seems like a refreshing change of pace to know that you can survive Valentine's Day and move on to YOUR day, doesn't it?

And if you are happy to be single, then February 15 is your day to tell the world. The dates approaching quickly, so it might be time to start planning your party right now.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Happy birthday Ki Tiong!

Dear Ki Tiong,
a good friend,
aka my 2nd mummy (hehe..),
remember how silly we were back in Year 1?
i remember i would run to your room when i had a really terrible day,
and you would listen to this silly girl,
i remembered how i would dragged you to the DSG hall in the middle of the night,
on days that i misses home very much,
and we'll duet on the piano,
until the guard chases us away,
those days in AMSA,
memorable days we had,
on days i panicked before exam,
you'll do PE with me, and reassure me everything will be fine,
And after exams, we'll celebrate and get crazy all over again,
5 years passed by in a glimpse,
soon, we'll be graduating and moving different paths,
i just want to let you know,
that i feel so blessed to have you as my friend..

I wish you a very Happy Birthday,
may you be the happiest bride,
the compassionate doctor,
the understanding friend...
soon, we'll have little James & little Ki Tiongs to play with... hehe..



CNY #5: Dinner with the extended family, Grandpa and Grandma

Well, if you think i have a BIG family. You should see my extended family. It's even bigger.. So, last Chinese New Year, we had dinner at the Region, Seremban.

Place: Regent Restaurant
Food : Chinese dinner
Location : Seremban, Negeri Sembilan
Food Taste: Not Bad, 70%
Service : So-so, 80%
Ambience : Too Chinese New Year feel, haha!

Me, hungry @ car
(yes, we had to buckle up at the rear seat)

My cousin, Kian Tiong bought a new DSLR (Digital Single Lens Reflex) camera.
So the nicer pictures were taken by him, and the not-so-nice ones were taken with my modest Sony Ericson K750i camera phone.
See whether you can figure out which is taken by which camera.

(p/s: i took the picture of the fish. the picture which he took tinggal bones only)

Before we proceed with the delicious food,
i'll like to take this opportunity to introduce my beloved family....
i never actually blog much about them, have i???
Funny, i was such in a family mood, this year round...

Anyway, behold to meet all the Leng Jais and Leng Luis

That's my happy Daddy and Mummy...
My brothers and sisters...
From left: Nice Tuan Ren, The Evil Tuan Yuan, Cute Yoon, Pretty Ling

Maternal Grandma & Grandpa..
Uncle Peter & Auntie & cousins: Kian Tiong(Eric), Ying Ying, Yen Ying
Uncle Frankie, Auntie and cousins: Ting Yee, Jian Ming, Jian Ning
Uncle David & Aunt & Cousins: Hong Wei, Chiu Yen, Chiu Peng, Chiu Yi
Aunt Cynthia & Uncle Darren Lai

Pretty Ying Ying Jie Jie

Cute cousin Ting Yee

ahhh.... this is my very VERY cute cousin neice... so chubby.. 2 months saja, you know..
so pandai to follow ppl around the room liao....
and very manja pun...

Anyway, let's go to the food...
i wanna make you all feel hungry.. hehe...

The Menu of the day

Lou Sang

Uncle Frankie said: must put some wine on the salmons..

(think picture so blur not because my camera skills are bad, it's because they lou too fast liao! :P)

My aunts and uncles...
Lou clean clean liao~ yuhuu~

~4 seasons~
This one very nice :)

~4 seasons~

~Roasted Crispy Duck~
oh... soooo juicy the duck....~shark Fin's soup with crabmeat~
(i hope there's no aquatic-protective-enthusiast seeing this)
~Happy prawnss~
hoho.... i loved prawns....
(don't worry, i'm again, i have my bestfriend, Mr Anti-Histamine to support me)
~Every year got fish~
not bad... very fresh...
(i took this picture!)

the picture Kian Tiong took... haha!!
he was like: i tak sempat take picture... they makan too fast liao...

~united glutinous rice~
nothing special... like biasa punya Loh Mai Fun lor...
The desserts in Regent Restaurant a little cheap leh, this time round....
i think if they were to serve ice-cream,
they should at least serve it in a serving cup..
rather than just give ice-cream in paper cups...
(i know, shinLoo is calling me picky liao... hehe..)
but i did remember i used to like cup ice-creams when i was little....

Anyway, everyone had a great time!! ^^
and i drove back to HUKM the same night...
had to prepare for exams.. siGh..
friends all back in HUKM liao pun...

Author's Note

Dear friends and readers, Thank you for dropping by and leaving comments/ shoutouts. More importantly, thank you for being there... please accept my apology that, lately, i may be busy with work and not have time to reply youir messages/comments, but rest assured, each and everyone is read, and highly appreciated :) have a nice day! ^^

of love

Today, i heard a story which was not a story of falling...
of living in the dark end of winter turmoil..
instead, it was a love story..
of a couple who did not live happily ever after...
but they live, loving each other..