Sunday, August 31, 2008

the dream for a longer penis...

An interesting article from The Star..
Welder put out of nut misery

Solid metal: A nut similar to the one that was removed from the welder’s penis.

Sunday August 31, 2008, JOHOR BARU: The welder who was hospitalised after he used a nut to elongate his penis was finally put out of his misery when doctors removed the offending spare part.

It is learnt that staff from the Hospital Sultanah Aminah drained out some of the blood and cut away some skin on the upper layer of his organ to remove the nut.

The 20-something welder was trying to increase the length of his penis ahead of his engagement next week by weighing himself down with the nut when the nut got stuck following an erection.

Director Dr Daud Abdul Rahim said doctors got the nut off at around 11pm on Friday.

“The patient is now recovering and we hope to discharge him today,” he said.

Dr Daud declined to say whether the patient would suffer any long-term injuries.

The welder, who works in Singapore, but is from Taman Sri Skudai, sought treatment at the hospital on Thursday afternoon after he was unable to get the nut off himself.

Both hospital authorities and the state Fire and Rescue Department were involved in attempts to remove the nut.

This is the second case in the past week involving objects stuck on penises.

On Aug 25, firemen were summoned to the University Malaya Medical Centre in Kuala Lumpur to cut a steel ring from a patient’s penis after numerous attempts by doctors failed to dislodge it.

It is believed the patient, in his 20s, had slipped the ring onto his penis to increase his sexual prowess.
Hanging is perhaps the oldest self-applied method of penis enlargement, with evidence suggesting it was practiced by the Greeks and certain African tribes as long as 2000 years ago. Weight hanging consists of attaching a device (usually a rope or a strap) that grips the glans or just behind the glans and allows a weight to be suspended for specific amount of time. (OUCH!)

Fresco of Priapus from Pompeii. Depicted weighing his large erect penis against a bag of gold. Ancient Romans admired the large penis of Priapus.


A penis pump is a cylinder that is fitted over the penis, with a manual or motorized pump to create suction. As the apparatus creates a vacuum around the penis, blood is drawn into the penis, helping it to become engorged. As vacuum increases, the difference between the inner blood-pressure and the pump pressure increases as well; excessive pressure causes vascular damage rather than a harder penis.Pumping must be done very carefully to avoid injury. Over-enthusiastic pumping can burst blood vessels and form blisters

OTHERS : Penis enlargement (girth) surgery, (injection of silicone, PMMA, and other materials into the penis and scrotum, to achieve girth enlargement) or Penis enlargement (lenght) surgery

According to Psychology Today, which surveyed 1,500 readers (about 2/3 women) about male body image. Many of the women were not particularly concerned with penis size and over 71 percent thought men overemphasized the importance of penis size and shape. Details were examined among the women with a size preference. Generally women cared more about width than men thought, and less about length. "...the number one reason women preferred a thicker penis was that it was more satisfying during intercourse." It's suggested this is because a wider penis provides more friction to the clitoral area while a longer penis reaches an area less stimulable.

COMMENTS: I wasn't sure whether to laugh or to cry when reading this article from The Star... Some people would do anything to satisfy their other half.... even painfully embarrassing things..

Saturday, August 30, 2008


Dear friends,

I shall be away in Teluk Intan Hospital, Perak for the next 2 weeks, leaving on Monday (Merdeka Day) and will be having my peadiatric exams on the week after that. Yesss, the super-boring place, Teluk Intan.. the last time I was there was 2 months ago.

you can read my experience in teluk intan here..

Anyway, I shall not be online for a while. But, I shall keep writing… for a writer never stops.. I shall keep you all updated when I am back. Looking forward for something nice~ will be missing all of you...

p/s: busy packing now... thanks to Im Sing who helped me with my checkList for Teluk Intan..

1. Clothes : formal clothes,casual clothes, pajamas, socks, towel (basics)
2. White coat, stethoscope, tendon hammer (need to remamber to pack my brains too)
3. Blanket, bed sheet, pillows (yes, i need my blanky...)
4. Footwear: Shoes, sandals
5. Toiletries: shampoo, tooth brush/paste, skin care, comb and hair care products
6. Mirror (important)
7. Medications (very important)
8. Books : medical , leisure (sigh... study, study, study... exams never ends)
9. Stationeries
10. My life (Laptop), external hard disc (the only things to keep me alive)
11. Chargers – laptop, cellphone, pda, ipod (things are useless without its charger)
12. Umbrella (sediakan payung sebelum hujan)
13. Food & drink , breakfast: Dutchlady chocolate milk
14. Dining utensils, drinking bottle
15. Ipod
16. Tissue paper
17. Pail, Dynamo, brush (i shall miss my washing machine, a lot! sigh...)
18. Hangers
19. Money, cellphone
20. Mosquitoes repellent (i hate mozzies)
21. Extension wire

-anything i missed? :)

Mr Good-Looking Guy

I met Woo online and he reminded me of a promise I forgotten to keep…. Please refer to the post TAIWAN touched my heart! (feb05,2007)

it's probably the most adventuress thing i have ever done!! on top of that, i went with im sing, 2 really fun Indonesian guys and 2 really cute Korean guys... haha... show you the pics later... ^_^’ (second paragraph, last line)

Lee Seung Woo, 25 year old cute final year Korean Medical Student from Chung-Ang University, who is an awesome dancer, says 'hi' to everyone… He is a sensitive Pieces, who plays sports like soccer, baseball, swimming and golf, enjoys diving, ski-ing and travelling… (DOB: 21/02/1983).. He had a great sense of humour.. oh yes, you should hear him play the piano and the flute... it's magical... last but not least, he’s single.. ^^

Woo: Hi everyone! Nice to meet you all.. Real face is better than picture.. :) if this picture gets famous, i'll show you another one.... haha.... nice meeting you all, Malaysians..

So blog readers, there, i kept my promise :)

Friday, August 29, 2008

Match the blood before you match for horoscope of marriage

I did a presentation this morning on Thalassemia – the course of illness, the impact, and the role of public health in coping with it. I would like to share part of it with you. This post is a little lengthy, so if you are too busy to read all, just read the ones highlighted in red ^^
If you are wondering what is Thalassemia, well, Thalassemia is an inherited autosomal recessive blood disorder due to the absence or reduced synthesis of globin chain in the hemoglobin, aka, Hemoglobinopathies. This would result in formation of abnormal haemoglobin molecules and causes anemia.
Allow me to explain in more simple terms. There are 3 types of Thalasemia: Thalasemia Major, Thalasemia Intermedia and Thalasemia Minor. People who are Thalasemia Major will have symptoms of severe anemia within their first year of life will suffer from failure to thrive and do not growth normally. In fact, if untreated, it can cause born deformities, osteoporosis, enlargement of liver and spleen, repeated infection and eventually lead to death within the first 10 years of life.
Therefore, these children require life long blood transfusion. However, blood transfusion alone is inadequate, as their body would suffer from iron overload, and they suffer complications from the treatment itself. Cardiac complications were reported to cause 71% of deaths in patients with thalassemia major. (Dudley J. Pennell, American Society of Hematology, 2004) Therefore, iron chelation therapy, or desferrioxamine is needed to reduce the iron overload. Desferrioxamine given via subcutaneous route at a dose of 35-40gm/kg costing RM12- RM17 a vial of 500mg. It is estimated that a patient would pay about RM700 per month for the iron-chelation therapy.
In more simple terms, if you have Thalassemia Major, you have life long complications, with life long blood transfusion and desferrioxamine therapy, and more importantly, all this comes with a very expensive price.
Thalasemia babies can be screened via antenatal screening, to identify these babies. However, abortion is illegal in our country, and I have seen couples who had one Thalassemic child after another.
And the sad story is…
  1. In Malaysia, less than 20% of patients receive adequate iron chelation therapy. (because of the financial burden, logistic problems, etc)
  2. The majority are ‘destined’ to die in the second or third decade of life from complications of multiple organ failure secondary to iron overload. In other words, even if they were treated, and even if they were compliance to medication, they would die anyway, somewhere in their thirties, from complications of the treatment. sad, isn't it?
Kudos to our government who had allocated RM49.4 million for a 4-point, comprehensive program that covers:
  1. The provision of free iron chelation for all children with thalassaemia
  2. A population-screening programme to detect and counsel thalassaemia carriers
  3. A public education programme to increase awareness of thalassaemia through campaigns, the mass media, school programs and others; and
  4. A National Thalassaemia Registry.
Now you would ask : Is Thalassemia common?
  1. According to Datuk Liao Tiong Lai on May 29, ‘Currently, there are 3591 registered Thalassemia patients, and it is estimated that one in 20 Malaysians is a carrier.’
  2. About 4.5% of the people in Malaysia are heterozygous carriers for beta-thalassemia and the couples are at risk of producing a child with beta-thalassemia major where affected births annually would be 2.1/1000. (Beta-Thalassemia Major in Malaysia, an on-going Public Health Problem E George, FRCPE, Medical Faculty, Universiti Putra Malaysia)
So, you can deny everything, but you cannot run from epidemiology. (YES, it is common!)
Selected high schools and collages have been educated about Thalassemia and relevant public health issues and how to prevent it. The simple diagram below shows how Thalassemia is genetically transmitted.

Thalassemia carriers can present asymptomatic, without any health problems, therefore, many carriers are not identified and undetected.
So logically, if you have family members who are known Thalasemia, you should be screened for Thalassemia, as well. And if you happened to be a Thalassemia carrier, you should screen you potential partner or boyfriend before you fall madly in love and into the i-can’t-live-without-you state..
So if you can prevent Thalassemia from happening altogether, you can prevent you child from having the illness, save the whole lot of money, and relief the country from the financial burden.
Take home message :
Match your blood before you match your horoscope for marriage

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Blue eyes?

5 patients were admitted to the peadiatric wards two days back. They came in for Pamidronate treatment. They had loose joints, limbs deformity with anterior bowing of femur, wasted calf muscles, and yes, blue eyes, or to be more precise, blue sclera. When interviewed, you will find that they had history of multiple fractures since birth. Some walked with difficulty; some could not even walk at all! No, this is not a case of child abuse. This is osteogenesis imperfecta (Latin: imperfect bone formation) or brittle bone disease, a autosomal dominant disorder due to the defective of type 1 collagen with generalized involvement of the bones, teeth, ligaments, sclera and skin. Collagen is an important protein for bone structure and this impairment causes weak or fragile bones.

And so, if you had ever wished you had blue eyes, think again…

p/s: on the brighter note, osteogenesis imperfect(OI) with blue sclera, being the milder form of OI, had better prognosis than those without.

p/ss: and it’s the sclera and not the iris that is blue. Why you may ask? It is because of the lack in collagen, causing such thinning that you can see the underlying choroidal veins which appears bluish. And students, PLEASE do NOT describe that as ‘cyanosed eyes’ , thank you.

Interested to know more? Visit the Osteogenesis Imperfecta Foundation

Monday, August 25, 2008

i see Christmas and it's giving me a headache :(

i needed a new pair of glasses.

The one i bought from A-Look last year, somehow had part of its multicoat removed, and when wearing it, you can actually see Christmas! seriously, there was like an imaginary fog in front of you and you can't seemed to wipe it off... super irritating! (i wanted to show it to you, but being a blogger without a camera, you can only imagine it...) -it's like having the world map craved on your glasses, streaks of tiger skin marks, and it was so obvious that my friend sitting across the table at the library could see it too! and the Christmas, it was giving me a headache...

Anyway, that's not the main point. Well, i wanted Hoya lens (somehow, i only trusted Hoya, i had been using Hoya lenses all this while, and i never had problems with them, so ya..) but A-Look recommended this "especially individually made" lens which was suppose to suit my frames better, and being a naive consumer, i fell for it. End up with a lens which 'uncoats' itself within less than a year... maybe i should go back to ALook, consumer's right, isn't it?

and i can't wear contacts all day (and night), too tiring for the eyes... and i was taught that we should not wear contacts more than 12 hours a day... although the Bausch & Lombs Softlens which i used claimed to be able to 'last up to 7 days of continues wear', i don't think i would want to expose myself to the risk of eye irritation, keratitis or even corneal ulceration... and besides, glasses makes one look smarter... so ya, i needed new glasses...

so, i decided to get a new pair of specs at Optical 88. i told the girl i wanted Hoya lens, 16% thining, 1.67 aspherical. And guess what? the lens and frames(rimless frames) cost RM790!! (wtf!) that's like half the price of Lasik surgery!! wow! maybe it's about time to consider Lasik...

moral of the story: if you have high refractive error plus astigmatism, NEVER believe those 99, 169 or 199 promotions! :P

p/s: btw, i am NOT hallucinating weh!

don't worry, i'm fine

dear blog readers,

firstly, i would like to apologize for not updating my blog for quite some time.. and for deleting the two previous posts,.. i had been going through a so-called 'repairing phase'.. -was recovering from some sort of trauma... and the weather had been bad lately... well, bad for me (it had been raining, on and off), but it might not have been bad for you... and so, i suffered the consequences of me, being non-compliance to my meds, oh well..

i guess i need to reassure everyone, shinLoo especially, (i was surprised to get your text message that day, worried), so, i need to reassure you all that i am fine...

people break, all the time, but people recover, given time...

i shall try not to blog too much about depressing things, my blog itself had been pretty depressing already... firstly, the color itself, being black, dark, is depressing.... the wards, had been depressing, with healthy patients coming back, sick, stories which painfully make your heart sore... and there goes the counter-transference theory and all..

and depression, is contagious, therefore, i had to quarantine myself, at least for a while... it is funny though, how depression sometimes manifest itself in physical signs and symptoms, but i shall talk about that, maybe next time...

there was this book i read lately: For one more day (by Mitch Albom), about the line, between living and dying. You draw this line somewhere in this world, and if you never cross it, you'll never consider throwing yourself off a building or swollowing a bottle of pills - but if you do (cross that imaginary line), you might. And you would ask yourself, how close would you actually get to the line?

the truth is, THERE IS NO LINE. there is only your life, how you messed it up, and who is there to save you.

or who isn't.

on the lighter tone, there will be sunshine after the rain, always.. and not forgetting the beautiful rainbow, only if you bother to look :)


Friday, August 15, 2008

i need anti-laziness

i have a case write up due tomorrow...
yet, i feel so lazy.....
i have an exam by the corner,
yet, i feel so lazy.....
i feel lazy even to blog....
lazy, lazy, lazy....
just darn lazy...
and i wonder,
is lazyness contagious?
it must have been,
if reading this made you feel lazy too...

i need anti-laziness....

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Spread the word about the Golden Window of Opportunity. Save your loved ones from stroke~

I attended a CPC (Clinical Pathology Conference) this morning by the A&E (Accidents & Emergencies) Department this morning. And I’ll like to share part of it with you today.

Ages ago, stroke, one’s greatest nightmare, was only managed by rehabilitation, good nursing and physiotherapy. But with today’s technology and new discoveries, note : the fibronolysis drugs and MERCI technology, made it possible to treat stroke or cerebrovascular accidents (CVA) if presented early. Thus, the golden hour is very important.


Every second wasted is lost of brain tissue. For each minute that brain tissue goes without blood flow, 1.9 million neurons die and 14 billion synapses are lost. Synapses are special pathways along which nerve impulses travel. The brain ages 3.6 years for every hour that passes after a stroke begins. The golden hour for stroke is within 6 hours from presentation. However, more than 50% of the patients presented to the hospitals in Malaysia, come to the hospital only after 12 hours!!!

Why you may ask? The answer is late detection. Many people do not know that they had a stroke and time is ticking against them. Fortunately, you do not have to be a medical student or a medical officer to detect signs of stroke. It is something very simple that a layman can do. And today, I shall be teaching you how. So that, someday, if you face this situation, you will be able to identify it and act fast and save someone from disabilities, making a difference in their life.

To make it easy: remember the mnemonic FAST.


Face – check for facial asymmetry. Is there drooping of one side of the face? To elicit more signs for better appreciation of the asymmetry, there is a series of ‘face exercise’ you could do (which can be quite funny).
1. without moving your head, look upwards
2. screw or squint your eyes
3. puff your cheeks (the examiner, with his index fingers, will attempt to pop the air out of your cheeks)
4. show your teeth (grin)
Good job! I see you had excitedly examined yourself. Good, you have great facial muscles and you do not have the facial features of stroke

Arm – ask the person to close his/her eyes. Then, raise both arms, palms facing down. Check whether one of the arm sways down.

Speech – ask the person to say: ‘The sky is blue’ or ‘You can’t teach an old dog new tricks’ or ‘ Pulau Pandan jauh ke tengah’ (in BM). Observed is there is any usual speech.

Time – if there are any positive signs of the above, it is time to act! Dial 999.

p/s: other signs: Sudden trouble walking, dizziness, loss of balance or coordination, Sudden severe headache with no known cause

Perhaps, it is difficult to illustrate in text. Watch this cartoon for a better idea. (from youtube)

*but of course you have to call 999 instead of 911 in Malaysia*

stroke is still one's greatest nightmare. but early detection can make a difference! i hope you benefit from reading this post. :)

Spread the word about the Golden Window of Opportunity. Save your loved ones from stroke~

sometimes it's just me, and nothing more...

in response to Ray's comment: emotions can be controlled, it's just a state of mind:

i used to believe in that some time ago, as i searched my old entries and found this:

sometimes it's just me, and nothing more...

the brain is a very powerful object
so powerful, it can do 'things' to us...
keep thinking of something,
and you'll believe that it's true...
keep denying something,
whatever truth may be overriden...
God enlightened me today...
i came to realise,
sometimes, it's just me,
and nothing more...


(Posted on April 08, 2005 at 09:15 AM )

note: used to. it keeps you in peace, reassured, in control. but you know, in the end, it's just you kidding yourself.

Sex & The City

Classification: 18PL
Genre: Comedy/Romance
Running Time: 2 hours 24 minutes
Director: Michael Patrick King
Cast: Sarah Jessica Parker, Kim Cattrall, Kristin Davis, Cynthia Nixon, Chris Noth, Jennifer Hudson, Lynn Cohen.
My Ratings: 4/5stars

I loved this movie. There, I was already bias before I even start on the review. If you are upset or depressed and really need a laugh, this is the movie for you. It was hilarious all the way. Like seriously, funny.. so, after the prof wu incident, this was like an elixir… and if you like movies like ‘devil wears prada’ and ‘27 dresses’, you would love this movie very very much too! The ‘baju’ all so nice- giving me the uncontrollable urge to shop. And the huge wardrobe? I was speechless… I was going like oh-my-God before Carrie repeated after me…

4 best-est girlfriends, Carrie Bradshaw (Sarah Jessica Parker), Miranda (Cynthia Nixon), Charlotte (Kristin Davis) and Samantha (Kim Cattrall) in New York City, middle age women, experiencing difference phases of life, love and challenges.

I enjoyed this movie very much, besides being super hilarious, I guess, I find it easy to relate myself and people around me to it. Like no matter what happens, your best buddies girl friends will always be there. When I heard the question- why do you want to go to New York? It reminded my of suk teng… and I could already predict the answer.

On days of depression, you just bury yourself under the blankets and regress. And there was the laughing for no reason, and shouting ‘ahh’ and ‘oh my god’ that people from the next table stared back. Yes, those were the crazy old days.. I missed those days… hanging out on a girl’s night out is fun! Dressing up, shopping, going somewhere nice to eat, drink, have the ‘fashion show’, going on a vacation, playing ‘hang-man’, talking bout anything, everything, just chilling and laughter, sharing secrets… what will I do without them?

I guess this movie is an-every-girl's-dream-movie. You know the perfect guy-thingy and the happily-ever-after. And when you grow older, you realized that they both do not exist.

When you are single, you wonder where he is. When you are in a relationship, you wonder whether he is the one. And you will never stop wondering… And girls being girls; are not easily satisfied.

Happily ever after does not exist. My mum never told me that. She fed me with fairytales of Cinderella and Snow White, like candy cones. That is why one has to not only love each other, but also love their relationship or marriage. Because there will be days where, mistakes were made, trust were betrayed, and when that happens you will need something stronger for salvation - quoted from for one more day, mitch albom, which i read last weekend. good book, will find time to write a review about it later.

P/s: I heard that the series were better. Looking forward to watch it!

P/ss: I am ‘gifted’ to predict what will happen next when I watch movies, which sometimes takes the fun out of it. And my friends would go, ‘how do you know?’.. even for the lamest movie like the sparrow and happening! hmm, maybe next time I should start betting on it..

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Day 1 without housemates

Day 1 without my housemates was awfully quite. I came back with the usual 'wo hui lai la!' (meaning: i'm home) only to have it echoed back and me, and a stiff realization that i shall be home alone, this whole week. You know, you start missing what things only when they are gone.. good thing, i met aland and susie on the way back and saved me from having dinner alone.

i was frustrated today, really frustrated, and coming to an empty home, was not helping.


I kept falling,
I do not know why,
I just do.

Whether it was physically
Or just emotionally
Or mentally
I fall

I fell again today, on my way to class, I did not know how it happened, It just did, I did not trip over anything, I just fell.

And the next thing I did was the rapid supination-pronation of wrist and hand-tapping test, to look for dysdiachokinesia. Though I knew that spinocerebellar ataxia was very unlikely, I did it anyway. Despite being a medical student, I do silly things anyway, and Susie had a great laugh when I told her this. oh well..

I fell again, at case presentation today, with Prof Wu, not physically though, it was a horrible experience, I would not like to elaborate. Perhaps it was the post-call syndrome, I could not be sure.

I fell even in my dreams. The scene repeatingly haunting me, I do not know why, I could not understand the times I wake up shouting.

I am tired of falling. Coz when I do fall, I fall deep. Sometimes you wonder, will you ever stand again.

Monday, August 11, 2008

does being a doctor make us any less humane?

At past midnight, all sounds at the peadiatric ward were accentuated. The occasional barking cough, the heavy breathing, wheezing in sync with the next bed’s snoring from the OSA (obstructive sleep apnea). Babies crying, each taking their turns, mothers singing their child to sleep...

Seeing this, I realized that a mother loves her child so much... so much so that she can sacrifice everything for her child... the sleepless nights, endless worries...

It’s fun playing with the kids in my peadiatric rotation, doing developmental assessment, watching how much they have grow, how much their condition has improved.

However, the peadiatric wards, especially the PICU (Peadiatric's Intensive Care Unit) is a very sad place. I saw a child who was brain dead today. The doctor had to let the child go with a DNR (do not resuscitate) order. The child's brain was edematous and no longer had a skull.... suffered from a fall and massive intracranial hemorrhage (bleeding in the brain)

Kids in ICU with many tubes in and out of them, fighting to live,... I wonder whether I would ever get numbed to these sadness... mothers praying hard... teary panda eyes… holding on to their child’s hand, fighting along. Down syndrome, cerebral palsies, patients in shock, respiratory failure, abandoned babies from Tengku Budriah Orphanage...

We still need to keep a brave upfront, to stay calm and keep professionalism - that is something I need to learn. To detach myself from the overflowing emotion, is that what we should do? Could that ever be done?

we can't be crying and resuscitating a patient all at the same time, can we?

does the journey towards being a doctor make us any less humane? - my friend asked-
less emotional, yes...
but inside, we are still very much human...

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Sparrow - a lame movie

Classification: U
Genre: Action - Do NOT believe this!
Running Time: 1 Hour 30 Minutes
Starring: Simon Yam
Kelly Lin
KaTung Lam
Johnnie To

I was fooled to be thinking that this was an action movie. You know pickpockets-mission-Simon Yam-Johnnie To : they all fooled me... So, I decided to write this review, to prepare you before watching this... and no, this wasn't a romantic movie either... i am unsure of what genre to classify this..

How should I describe this movie? Hmm... if you are feeling lazy, and just want a non-intellectually-challenging movie, this is a movie for you... The plot is VERY predictable… it’s a story that even my 5 year old cousin nephew can recite... reminded me of story from the sixties… there were endless moments where you go like ‘OH MY GOD, what is that fella trying to do?’ or ‘ what was he thinking?’...

I find this story rather empty, sometimes, even pointless... It lacked substance... I guess they were trying a little too hard to make this movie an ‘artistic’ movie, that they neglected the importance of the plot. And the background music, sometimes just make me laughed unintentionally.. haha! I find the music too ‘happy’... when i saw the first scene:Simon Yam on the bicycle, being so happy with that chirpy music, i was expecting a group of people to magically appeared from nowhere and started dancing.. It would be not cruel to say that some parts were rather 'lame'.. i was disappointed greatly.

Well, not all is bad. I should applaud the camera skills which shined during this movie. More applauds to the white suits, the bicycle, the rain, the black umbrellas and the swift pickpocketing skills. But today’s consumer expects something more... mediocre is insufficient... i personally think that if this movie is modified to a musical drama, and added some twisted plot, this movie could greatly improve.

If you plan to watch this movie, be modest with your expectation, do not have high hopes. If you plan to watch this movie, skip the below section, do not want to reveal too much to spoil it. Come back to the below section, after you watched the movie.

p/s: the opinions were my individual personal opinion. Other people may differ.
Sparrow – A reflection
When you venture deeper into this movie, you realized the hidden meanings behind those pointless plots, very applicable to our daily life.

1. Pickpockets are everywhere, they do not discriminate.
2. Guys are stupid and crazy when they meet a superbly gorgeous girl. They would do ANYTHING. (vice versa)
3. When a very pretty girl suddenly seduces you or treats you extra nice, she wants something.
4. When you think you are smart, someone else you least expected, might be smarter, watching you.
5. People tend to hold on to something that is non-existent, building a strong wall from an architect of ice, shielding from other elements, believing in what they wished to believe, with only hope to keep them happy.
6. Nothing hurts much more that holding on to that non-existent something. You know you can keep it close, yet it was never yours to start with, and so, it takes a lot of strength and courage to learn to let go. For all you want, is for her to be happy.
7. You may be the richest or most powerful man on earth, yet still unhappy.

*Note: if you are observant, you might notice the not-so-subtlely advertising for camera and cigarettes

Ratings: 1/5star : a sympathetic star for the camera, the black umbrellas, the bicycles and the simple straight-forward plot, and 'hidden messages'

p/sss: Click here for a second opinion, by shinLoo

Saturday, August 9, 2008

i do stupid things all the time
i don't know why
i just do it
(correction: did)

shinyin's Nuffnang's Gift list ^_^ (compliment of RealMart)

When I read about Nuffnang’s Gift Ideas Contest being extended to 19th August, I knew this was one of those times when life gives you a second chance. So, I had to try my luck and participate. Plus, the increase of the first prize gift voucher from RM1500 to RM2000 was very tempting indeed.

All one have to do is:
1. register at Nuffnang's Gift Ideas Contest
2. Pick a gift from Realmart
3. blog about the gift that one wants to give to a fellow nuffnanger and the reasons behind it.
4. pray really hard

Thanks to Real Mart, I may be able to give you all this gift (if i win the RM2k cash voucher, that is, so pray hard ya..):

1.A Swiss Recruit Swiss Military Watches (Ladies) - 6-744.04.003 for Suk Teng who had a problem with punctuality.

This fine watch:
* Have mineral crystal glass, screw backs, Swiss quartz movement, with date
* Luminous hands for easy night reading
* Luminous dots on dial for easy night reading
* Water resistant : 100 m (you can do all the watersports you want! and still be punctual!!! beat that!)
* Material : Stainless steel bracelet and case

For those times you made me wait hours, for those time, you ffk-ed me, (note: ffk=fong fei kei aka let go aeroplane, metaphore for missing an appointment), for those times I realized your time is 30minutes slower, or sometimes even more, this is for you, ( IF i win the RM2k cash voucher... so, pray hard my friend.

2. A Apple iPod shuffle 1GB - Silver - MB225ZP/A for ShinLoo who just had her mp3 player robbed by a stranger.
This really cool silver player has:
* 1GB (240 songs)
* 4 hours charging time
* Audio support : MP3, MP3-VBR, AAC, Protected AAC, Audible, WAV and AIFF
I find it a really good jogging companion. And on those frustrated days, when you needed some peace at the LRT station, and someone might suddenly pop up some random conversation, or pick-up lines, this would really help.

3. A TAG SUNGLASSES-ME6510 for Darren who needs to hides his dark circles after all those long hours of on-calls ^^

*Ultra light weight, comfortable fit, trendy design.
*Come with a black color sunglasses casing

4. A Edu Toys Mini Skeleton - SK046 for Primus John who should really learn his anatomy since he dreams to be an orthopeadic surgeon.

Guess what? it's a REAL LIFE MODELwit
*Real life model
*Durable parts
*ABS stand
*Age: 8+

5. A Edu Toys Stethoscope - MI001 for Christina who loves kids and this should really come in handy during peadiatric postings =)
*Real working stethoscope - just like the one doctor uses Age: 6+

6. A Philips Essential Lamp 18w - Ess 18w CDL for Yee Ming who needs to lighten up, haha!
*Cool daylight 18w.
*Best seller in its range.
*Energy saver.
*H=16.8cm,D=5.4cm, L=5.5cm Energy saver lamp, White color.

Any gift you might want?

Friday, August 8, 2008


I saw my seniors’ convocation today. I wasn’t sure whether it’s a good thing for me or not... I mean, of course it is a good thing… in fact, it is a GREAT thing,- for them... but it also means, I shall be in their shoes, in their robes, this time next year... Which equals I shall be having my Professional Exams soon, very soon, and will be finally stepping into the working life, the harsh reality.. oh well...

The hall was overflowing with seniors in Red Robes today. I wanted to get sunflowers for my buddy, the kind that smiles back at you, but there weren’t any, so I settled with daisies. They were beautiful pink and purplish red daises, with small white ones between them. They were looking at me, saying ‘buy me’, and so, I did. The flowers reminded me that everything in life is transient. In time, even the most beautiful flower on earth will eventually wither. Well, maybe I was being emotional today.

I liked watching people graduating. The happiness in their faces. Just watching is good.

I cannot believe how medical life flew past me. How every decision I made, and did not make, would have affected my life. The never-ending ‘what-ifs’... Sometimes, one thing leads to another, I wonder, what would have had happened if I did something else, if i were to take the other path.

Haha! I am beginning to get crappy. My words are incongruent. It did not rain today, despite being 080808. (note: the unforgettable 090999) Perhaps it was because, it was already pouring in me. I need anti-fogs.

I ran again today. I denied things that I really want. But I’ll make sure; this is the last time...

i am a living zombie, am i?

Hey, I had a new beginning when I reformatted my pc, right? Life will get better. I shall stay focus, and everything will be alright. Study is perhaps, one of the few things that will not disappoint. I cannot afford to lose this too. I shall work hard!

p/s: Happy Olympic Day!


Something good will happen today...

Monday, August 4, 2008

I nearly got run down by a car today

I reformatted my laptop today,
It was easier than I expected, (credits to MK who taught me how)
The sun was good,
And so, I went jogging,
To celebrate the recovery of my left foot,
I guess we never realize or appreciate what we have
-until we lost it,
It still hurts a little, but it is okay,
I cannot see the finishing line,
I was sure whether is there a finishing line,
But I ran as fast as I could,
Running past so much, I could not be bother to notice,
Running hard, Running straight,
As if there were some reward at the end of the race,
My foot hurts,
I had to keep running, keep pushing further,
To squeeze that tiny bit of endorphins,
And I doubted the research on exercise releasing endorphins.
Thoughts clouded my mind,
I recited this as I ran,
Flashes of memory replayed in my head,
I was numbed, I hoped to be numbed.
Numbed is a good protective mechanism.
I needed to be numbed.
Oh, and if you were wondering about the title,
This was the part where I was nearly hit by a car,
I blamed my ipod for that,
Or rather it was me,
Holding on to something that did not exist.
The sun sets, signaling me to get home,
I was running a losing race,
And yet, here I am, still running,
A NEW BEGINNING – I said to myself,
I reformatted my life, when I reformatted my PC today.
Tomorrow is waiting.

Sunday, August 3, 2008

Peadiatric Day 1

I wanted to write about something of a brighter tone, something motivational, I had been blogging so much sad stories, my readers must be getting depressed as they read on... but somehow, I realized, the hospitals are full of sad stories. Stories that challenged your emotions as you try to put on a brave professional upfront.

Peadiatrics was fun! is fun! The kids especially, as they looked into your eyes saying, ‘Jie, play with me’... smiling at you, innocently, genuinely, the baby lived in his fantasy world,.. I loved doing DA with them! (DA=Developmental Assessment, as series of games which can estimate whether a child’s development is delayed). Every baby is unique.. but behind those smiles, hid a story...

Last month, I’ve seen an abandoned baby, then an abandoned schizophrenia patient, and this week, an abandoned child, and later even more sad stories..

Sulaiman, a 54 weeks old boy, delivered at home via spontaneous vertex delivery. He was delivered at home and his Indonesian mother later brought him to the hospital, left him there, and ran away. He was premature, ill, and abandoned with the doctors were resuscitating him... yes, his mother left him while he was still crying, in respiratory distress.

He was intubated and ventilated. The first few days were miserable, the subsequent days weren’t any better. He suffered from multiple problems: chronic lung disease, retinopathy of prematurity on the right eye(leading to blindness), and bilateral severe sensory neural hearing loss (deaf on both ears), GERD, delayed developmental milestones, poor growth and worse of all, suffered from a life without a family.

My friends and I bought him some toys the other day. While other kids had overflowing toys, Sulaiman had none. Dr Juriza said that he lived in an environment deprived of stimulus. The doctor wanted to offer him the benefit of Cochlear Implants, but it would be difficult for him as rehabilitation, which is very important, is difficult for this patient. Sad, isn’t it? He will be transferred to Tunku Ampuan Hajihah Homes. I hope that his life would be better there.

.....praying that he would be nurtured into a big strong tree.....

Author's Note

Dear friends and readers, Thank you for dropping by and leaving comments/ shoutouts. More importantly, thank you for being there... please accept my apology that, lately, i may be busy with work and not have time to reply youir messages/comments, but rest assured, each and everyone is read, and highly appreciated :) have a nice day! ^^

of love

Today, i heard a story which was not a story of falling...
of living in the dark end of winter turmoil..
instead, it was a love story..
of a couple who did not live happily ever after...
but they live, loving each other..