Thursday, December 30, 2010

GOODBYE 2010, HELLO 2011... reflections

FINALLY, another year had passed... and we are one year older, one year wiser, and perhaps we should count ourselves lucky that we had survived another year, made it through... while some others didn't. Working in a hospital, what more the ICU (Intensive Care Unit), kind of made me appreciate life more... now that i'm seeing death almost every day of my life... informing DIL to nearly half the patients in the ward... yup, it's a sad place, and we should appreciate every single day...

Last year, i made some reflections on the year 2009.... and this year... i think i shall make it a tradition, to reflect back again... to appreciate the gains,... acknowledge the loss... be stronger,... set new goals... and look forward for a better, brighter, if not happier, future... ^^ let's cherish and celebrate the new year together! ^^

2010 has been very eventful and fruitful for my life as a house officer in Hospital Melacca.

i remembered the girl with the ectopic pregnancy which came during my oncall with Dr Kuharaj...where the patient lost over 3 liters of blood... it keeps bleeding and pouring... Thank God, she was managed to be saved.... (read more in together, we can make a difference)

Then, there was the time i entered the houseman-greatest-feared-posting-in-hospital-melacca when i was VERY convinced that my boss loved my very much... and sometimes, i get a little demotivated as i slaved myself day and night... until one day, something GREAT happened... and changed everything.... and Dr Mitesh made it possible when i did my first skin-to-skin appendicectomy...

I entered peadiatrics.... and i learnt some interesting, yet sad stories.... and worked on every Raya Day...

and then came GA, General Anaesthesia where i actually get to do my very first spinal anaesthesia and it was AWESOME!

Well, apart from work, i did find something else...

I got very, Very, VERY CONFUSED at first....

some days could be depressing....

until finally, i found my LOVE-AT-First-Sight....

and that changed everything...

OH YES, not to forget, i had an AWESOME BIRTHDAY this year...

although i did not yet all that i've wished for...

i had a GREAT celebration with FAMILY and FRIENDS.... ^^

i got to spent it with a special someone this year.... and had some happy moments....

i keep myself reminded of my loved ones at home... my parents whom i loved very much...

Reminiscing the past made me missed my friends very much... the times we spent on the rocks.... the fun we had at SongKran  Festival, Bangkok...

oh YES, i also had some BOUTS OF PATRIOTISM....

and then i stopped at a COMMA.... and did a reflection....

Looking back, i think, generally, i had a great year... ^^

Monday, December 13, 2010

the commas in life


Life is a mystery
But a mystery can be solved
Well, Life’s mystery can’t
Which of course, complicates things further…

I cannot understand my very own life,
What more, to look out my life,
Or even bother to understanding other’s people life…

Sometimes, life feels like a [full stop]
Yeah, a [full stop]
Like it has all come to an end
And it is very VERY difficult to start a new sentence..

But my life,
At this point in time,
Maybe it feels like a [comma]
Yeah, a [comma]
Like waiting for something BIG to happen

I anticipate, yet I fear…
I fear of it being too BIG to handle
I fear it being a disappointment
And I drowned myself with millions of [what Ifs]
And then I start hitting the [backspace] button
Searching for the [delete] and [edit] key
But somehow,
Somehow, life does not allow that.
No, it does not.
Life just does not work that way.

So, long I stood,
Just before the [comma]

Friday, December 3, 2010

Pencil vs Eraser


Pencil: I'm sorry.

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt because of me.
Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it.
But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself.
You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true.
But I don't really mind.
You see, I was made to do this.
I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong.
Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job.
So please, stop worrying.
I hate seeing you sad. =)

I received this from and e-mail and found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational, therefore, sharing it with you guys...
Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil.
They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes.
Sometimes along the way they get hurt and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).
Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying or sad.

Thank you MUM & DAD... i love you very much.....

Let's celebrate our parents... glorify them... appreciate them.... and above all, love... 

Author's Note

Dear friends and readers, Thank you for dropping by and leaving comments/ shoutouts. More importantly, thank you for being there... please accept my apology that, lately, i may be busy with work and not have time to reply youir messages/comments, but rest assured, each and everyone is read, and highly appreciated :) have a nice day! ^^

of love

Today, i heard a story which was not a story of falling...
of living in the dark end of winter turmoil..
instead, it was a love story..
of a couple who did not live happily ever after...
but they live, loving each other..