You hide your emotions behind the layers and layers of make up,
You hide your depression behind the layers and layers of words,
The wards were unusually quiet today,
Or was it I who turned down the volume,
I cannot believe I am in my final year, already,
It seemed like it started just yesterday.
It is not so much of the exams that I feared,
At least, not anymore,
Instead, I feared of life after that,
life after exams,
And I feared of not being able to perform,
I feared of disappointing others, disappointing myself,
Dealing with lives, it’s not something you can take lightly,
When every decision counts and makes a difference,
And I feared I may run, just the opposite direction,
Refusing to make that decision,
As I pull the brakes,
Shut the engine,
The way I shut myself out today.
Life must go on, isn’t it?
I cannot walk down this path blindfolded,
Happiness is just transient,
And you knew that, didn’t you?
(Written on March 25, 2008 at 09:32 AM)