Wednesday, September 29, 2010



It’s October again!! Yup. The supposing best month of the year! Triple 10 this year! Must be a very important moment, is it? I think I have reached the point where I stopped counting my age. Stopped believing in Boon Lee’s philosophy that [OLD IS GOLD]… not that I ever believed in it anyway… I mean, how could older ever be better??? Everything worsen when the age increases… higher risk of osteoporosis, hypertension, diabetes, stress, responsibility, burdens… everything.... not to forget, AGING…. Sigh… (okay, let’s all put all those negativity aside…)
Well, birthdays ain’t that bad, I suppose… at least we still have wishes (and gifts!!) to look forward to… yippie… but u know, getting a gift for someone can be somewhat challenging… so, this year, well, I made a list! ^^
1.      iphone 4 !!!! (please, please, please…)
2.      a HUGE HUGGABLE TEDDY BEAR!!! (Forever Friends bear would be nice ^^ )
3.      or maybe one of those cute one-eye-yellow-minions from Despicable me – the movie
4.      a white handbag, medium size, big enough to sling over shoulder but small enough for parties
5.      a watch, non-digital, water proof, preferably pink/black
6.      a vacation! (yeah, I need a break) and more holidays!
7.      an external hard disc (running low on disc space)
8.      Wii (that’ll be fun! )
9.      A new hairstyle – I wanna get some curls!
10.  WANG LEE HOM in person (hmm… still having fantasy… haha!)
11.  a small but warm birthday bash with close family&friends, maybe?
12.  a hospital transfer back to Seremban after housemanship
14.  SURPRISE!!!!
15.  SURPRISE!!!!!
16.  I know, I just loved surprises!! ^^
17. PURE HONESTY and some answers
18. To find a better meaning to life
19.  And of course, HAPPINESS, always… to the people around me whom I care… (and myself too)
Not an easy list, ei? I guess nobody will get me those gift… need to start saving… those I’m like totally broke for now… so,  sigh… oh well, no harm wishing….
Happy Birthday to me~

Thursday, September 16, 2010

oh boy, why is it so darn hard to feel happy?

my eyes are painful,
somewhat red from all the rubbing,
somewhat watery from all the tearing...

my heart is retching,
aching with each breathe i take,
hurting with every thoughts of you...

when you promised happiness,
you gave pain instead?
when you said you will be there,
you were not?
when you made promises,
you broke them one by one?

is it true?
that one need to walk down the path,
the path covered with shattered glass,
and let their feet bleed,
with every step,
sharp pain shooting up the spine,
yet, thou shall keep walking,
to reach the destination of happiness...

what if you thought you have found happiness,
and later found out,
that it was all a white lie...
a fairytale that never exist,
a pacifier for little kids...

i wondered how could you have let it be,
how could you have let it go,
perhaps, somethings weren't as important,
perhaps sweet words, were only words...

and i,
i only deserved to be in this dark space...

perhaps what they predicted was right
everyone was given a certain amount of happiness
and i am starting to reach the end of my quota...
the tip of the toothpaste tube....

oh boy, why is it so darn hard to feel happy?

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

raya surprises! and a touching petronas advertisement...

when everyone is happily looking forward to the raya holidays...
 all i have is a series of standbys, precalls, on-calls....
will be working throughout the raya holidays EVERYDAY till late night!
work, work, work....

nevertheless, to the rest :


please drive carefully home....
do not speed...
biar lambat asalkan selamat...
stay healthy,
stay VERY healthy...
and NEVER visit me in the hospitals during my calls....
do not drop me surpises...

just stay home and enjoy the festival! ^^

here's a very touching petronas advertisement....

Monday, September 6, 2010

Views on Malaysia Unity by Sharyn Lisa Shufiyan (Tunku Abdul Rahman’s great granddaughther)

Views on Malaysia Unity by Sharyn Lisa Shufiyan (Tunku Abdul Rahman’s great granddaughther)

I came across this interesting article and would like to share it with you... written by Tunku Abdul Rahman’s great granddaughter Sharyn Lisa Shufiyan, 24, Conservationist – Conservationists advocate for the protection of all the species in an ecosystem with a strong focus on the natural environment.


Both my parents are Malay. My mum’s heritage includes Chinese, Thai and Arab, while my dad is Minangkabau. Due to my skin colour, I am often mistaken for a Chinese.

I’m happy that I don’t have the typical Malay look but I do get annoyed when people call me Ah Moi or ask me straight up “Are you Chinese or Malay”

Like, why does it matter? Before I used to answer “Malay” but now I’m trying to consciously answer Malaysian instead.

There’s this incident from primary school that I remember till today. Someone told me that I will be called last during Jud gement Day because I don’t have a Muslim name. Of course, I was scared then but now that I’m older, I realise that a name is just a name. It doesn’t define you as a good or bad person and there is definitely no such thing as a Muslim name. You can be named Rashid or Ali and still be a Christian.

I’e heard of the 1Malaysia concept, but I think we don’t need to be told to be united. We’ve come such a long way that it should already be embedded in our hearts and minds that we are united. Unfortunately, you can still see racial discrimination and polarisation. There is still this ethno-centric view that the Malays are the dominant group and their rights must be protected, and non Malays are forever the outsiders.

For the concept to succeed, I think the government should stop with the race politics. It’s tiring, really. We grew up with application forms asking us to tick our race. We should stop painting a negative image of the other races, stop thinking about ‘us ‘ and ‘them’ and focus on ‘we’, ‘our’ and ‘Malaysians’.

No one should be made uncomfortable in their own home. A dear Chinese friend of mine said to me once, “I don’t feel patriotic because I am not made to feel like Malaysiais my home, and I don’t feel an affinity to China because I have never lived there.

I know some baby Nyonya friends who can trace their lineage back hundreds of years. I’m a fourth generation Malaysian. If I am Bumiputra, why can’t they be, too? Clearly I have issues with the term.

I think the main reason why we still can’t achieve total unity is because of this ‘Malay rights’ concept. I’d rather ‘Malay rights’ be replaced by human rights. So unless we get rid of this Bumiputra status, or reform our views and policies on rights, we will never achieve unity.

For my merdeka wish, I’d like for Malaysians to have more voice, to be respected and heard. I wish that the government would uphold the true essence of parliamentary dem o cracy. I wish for the people to no longer fear and discriminate against each other, to see that we are one and the same.

I wish that Malaysia would truly live up to the tourism spin of Malaysia truly Asia. Malaysians to lead – whatever their ethnic background.

No Malays, No Chinese, No Indians – ONLY MALAYSIANS…….

Choose whatever religion one is comfortable with.


Let’s not forget our true value and spirit when we celebrate our Independence.


Author's Note

Dear friends and readers, Thank you for dropping by and leaving comments/ shoutouts. More importantly, thank you for being there... please accept my apology that, lately, i may be busy with work and not have time to reply youir messages/comments, but rest assured, each and everyone is read, and highly appreciated :) have a nice day! ^^

of love

Today, i heard a story which was not a story of falling...
of living in the dark end of winter turmoil..
instead, it was a love story..
of a couple who did not live happily ever after...
but they live, loving each other..