Sunday, April 5, 2009

hopeless= a tragical vocabulary

'hopeless' he said

i never knew letting go could be this hard.
the feeling was like when the surgeon came out from the operation thether,
still in his surgical scrubs
he removed his mask
gave that solemn look
offered that pat on the shoulder
and then, you know,
you just know...

after those days in ICU.
those failed resuscitation attempts,
i guess, you had finally given up...
i should be grateful, thankful, i know.
to have you holding on longer than your body could sustain,
but i guess,
the day has come...

today, it is the day i shall be grieving...
thank you,
thanks for accompanying me all this 3 and a half years...
on hectic days, when i was rushing assignments, meeting deadlines, you were there for me,
on boring days, you were there to light up my life,
on bad hair days, you were there to cheer, to listen, to make things right...
and after 3.5 years, which probably translate to 70years in your world,
you let go your last beep,
and i didn't even get to day goodbye...



















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footnote: notebook officially died today secondary to multiple organ failure

10 comments:

  1. cheh... i thought what... notebook... zzzzzz......
    u can afford a new one la... so rich... buy camera coz u WANT one... some more gonna work liao... high pay job...

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  2. MOF ! haha..good one there. oops. I should be patting ur back.

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  3. swt... zzzz...
    but, thank GOD its a notebook.
    its about time to get a new one though.

    from your other indecisive Libran. ^^

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  4. Aiyoyo..why the sad posts?? Just deepened my mellow mood.

    Be happy now you are officially a graduate..welcome to the working & REAL world

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  5. shinloo, i'm currently UNEMPLOYED lar... and i won't be getting my first 3 months salary.. government work like that one wor, it seemed.. and i am super broke.. i just got the camera, which i NEEDed... it's a NEED leh, not WANT... no laptop so susah... *depressed* i want a magic card~

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    wi,
    ishhh...
    why laughing at my misery? saddist lar you...
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    The other indecisive Libran,
    my notebook died and you thank God for it? =( it matters quite a lot to me leh... the notebook teman me so long liao... i know it's silly but i feel sad lehh..

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    MRC, i think when one gets too dependant on technologies, it's kinda hard losing them... sometimes, we get some kinda emotional attachment... *sob*

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    Kris, you're always having a positive thinking... why having mellow mood lately?

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  6. cos the way you wrote it seems pretty sad and miserable, its like the dead of someone close to you. my first impression was like probably relatives or friends, but it seems to be the other way round... your notebook. so, it can be counted good, for it could be far worst...

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  7. u should be happy.. new one coming wat.. :)

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  8. Dann, the other Libran,
    yeah, i understand what you mean... positive thinking huh? things could hv been worse... *touch wood*!!


    bingwui, you think new one just magically appear? dunnit $$ ak??? siGh...

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  9. Dann, the other Libran,
    yeah, i understand what you mean... positive thinking huh? things could hv been worse... *touch wood*!!


    bingwui, you think new one just magically appear? dunnit $$ ak??? siGh...

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