Tuesday, January 13, 2009

crushes crushes people

Referring to the previous post on Crushes, a friend of mine said that, to get people to talk about things, I should get the ball rolling first… oh well…

I find telling stories from the past can be quite embarrassing, but you know, when things happened some very long, long time ago, thinking back, you could only laugh yourself silly.


So, today, I shall share my story.

YES, Tai Im Sing, I am writing about my crush, and you owe me dinner, haha!

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I think I had my first crush when I was in standard three. Actually, I cannot be sure. I mean, what does a 9 year-old knows about crushes and all? A 9-year-old can get so confused with emotions and all…

Anyway, back then, when I was a 9-year-old kid, I was very much different from now, I guess. I was not tall, and not the least pretty or smart. I wore huge thick rimmed spectacles since year one. (Thanks to my dad who somehow believed that the bigger the frames, the more you can see, sigh..)
I had huge incisor teeth, the kind that overlapped each other, creating an inverted ‘V’ shape or a dentition on my front upper row teeth, somehow slightly disfiguring. Mummy used to call them ‘cute rabbit teeth’, while I, well, I had my reasons not to smile.

I had straight hair, short, with some fringe, common haircut, not enough to fish a compliment. I was not even friendly or talkative. Shy may not be the sufficient vocabulary either. Teachers never remember me.


When relatives visits us, it was often ‘ Nei geh tai lui hou guai, Ling Ling hou leng, chii jap pun mui’. (In cantonese, your eldest daughter very obedient, second daughter very pretty, like a Japanese doll) Ling Ling is my sister, and she was always the pretty one. And I was supposing, the obedient one. Did I say that with a tinge of jealousy?? Haha! I need to clarify that I love my sister very much, and we have a very close bond. We still do immature things together, most which are too embarrassing to blog about.

Anyway, back to the story.


So, that was the 9-year-old me.


Let’s just say, I was the little girl in class that no one notices.


However, there was this boy who noticed. He sat next to me at class. I do not know why I still remember him. Perhaps, it was because he was very nice.

His name was Kevin. Kevin Wong.

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I remember the paper frogs he taught me to fold. And I still remembered how to fold them.
We would have competitions on whose frogs could jump the highest, the furthest. He made the frogs do impressive somersaults, while we laughed at those who could not land at their feet.
Here's how the paper frog looked like.
I folded another one, as it looked very alone.


Anyway, those days, he would race me at homework, I remember Maths in particular. Somehow, he always wins and he would rush me into finishing mine, sometimes even letting me copy answers. I could not remember whether I did so. I often looked forward to finishing my homework fast; just to catch up with him, so that we would have time for play.

When I was unhappy or bored, he would cheer me up, telling me stories. I think he must have been very good with origami; he would fold objects with his magic hands, build buildings from stationeries, making his stories very much exciting. I remembered, once, during the middle of exams, he made this HUGE froggie from a white artblock! Funny, I remember none of those stories now.


I remembered he played the Electone (an electric piano with 2 layers of keys plus 1 layer of foot pedals). We shared the same fate as we were forced by our parents to practiced 1 to 2 hours per day. He was very smart for a 9 year old, I guess, as he would play a few songs, record them in the electone, and replay the songs repeatedly over the next whole hour. His Philippino maid, busy cooking in the kitchen, never discovered it. I secretly envied him for that, and wished my piano was electrical too! I remembered we would sit for hours at our desk, together playing the imaginary piano during breaks, making up some imaginary song. I never really heard him play before though.

After school, we would play at the school field, near the back school gate, while waiting to go home. We would catch ladybirds and let them go. I remembered the red round creatures with pretty black spots. We would play catch and raced each other to the end of the field.


About half a year later, or so, my parents decided to shift to Seremban. So, I had to change schools.

And I, I never see him again.


So, that was the story of my first crush, that is, if you consider that as one.

There was no palpitations, ears-turning-red, or i-can’t-live-without-you kind of feeling though. Perhaps, it was more of losing a childhood friend rather than a crush. I think I did missed him every once in a while, back then. I must have had. Maybe, that was why, part of me resented to start all over in a new primary school.


Silly me, right?


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Anyway, I cannot decide whether I like crushes or not.


I think sometimes, maybe sometimes, crushes crushes people.

At first, it feels good, nice.
Then, comes the palpitations and the I-want-to-see-you feeling and all.
Sometimes, you get fantasy and all, to some extent, even obsessions. And you had to inhibit your own mind like : Gosh, can I just stop thinking about him! Stop appearing in my dreams, please! -And it just drives you crazy. The last time I saw my last crush, I had an asthmatic attack. Not so good (or safe), huh?

So, over the years, there was the head prefect, the school house captain, the senior, the group moderator, the other group moderator, and a few others…

but I guess the longest crush I had,
the longest crush I had,
it had to be him.

Let me see, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5….. 12 years!


OH MY GOD! I had a crush on you for 12 years!!

Well, I actually had a picture of him.













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TA-DA!
how can anyone not have a crush on him?


I think I still do, haha!

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p/s: There is a poll about crushes on the right hand column of this page. Do feel free to participate.

26 comments:

  1. haha thanks for sharing but your crush is at such a relatively young age..WOWOOOO.....

    But agreed what u said in that one cannot stop thinking & it do drives one crazy at time....But hey, who won't fell over heel over Lee HOm...*_* *_*

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  2. Hey, you really caught me into it. ROAR!!! Thought i could look at the photo on how ur crush would looks like... and it end up to be Wang LeeHom. Swt... =.=

    Anyway, there's something inside your writting about your childhood friend. Its lovely, thou doesnt have a good ending, well, not really an ending yet. Its just "tergendala" at the moment... it might continue after the break.

    *pray that you meet him soon*

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  3. I had my first crush when I was in Primary 3 (9 years old). It was the first day a transfer student entered our class. I try all kind of things to get her attention but nothing work. I finally gave up after primary 6 after I saw her "ugly" side

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  4. oh my..from kevin wong to alexander wong...

    -.-"

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  5. i love this story shinyin!!! it's so sweet... :) i never knew, u never talk about ur crushes... well except recently...

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  6. I had a crush when I was 9 years old or younger :))

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  7. haha...the world is very small, SY. i guess u can easily find ur KEVIN WONG..try to google him or search him in facebook@ friendster haha...who knows, he might blog too :D :D

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  8. Shin Yin, it's so kind of you to share with your readers about your *crushes* :) I feel like I am reading a real story which will certainly have a good ending ~~= Shin Yin meets Kevin Wong and they get married. They have a lovely life ever after... lol..
    I really hope..you can meet him again! Please try to look up for him, k? He might be the *one*...:D

    By the way, I felt cheated when I saw Lee Hom's pic...zzz...lol

    ** Bless you, girl **

    With Love,
    JC

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  9. wa...
    suddenly a guy kevin wong leave a comment here how ah?
    i think i had 2 crush when i was in year 3..lol

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  10. >dear all,
    my second attempt to get ppl to open up about their story has once again failed. oh well..
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    >Dann, BoonLee and Sook Jiuan,
    why do you want me to stalk him and look him up?? wouldn't it be super embarrassing? and he might not even remember me! besides, people change over the years. i think memories should be keep as memories.at least i still get to keep some pleasant ones :) why go dig a hole for yourself and get yourself crushed? besides, i was only 9 years old!! nine!

    and Joanne, NO, there's certainly no meeting, getting-married or ever-after!! you think watching Korean drama meh? haha!

    i share with you all my story, you all tease me pulak! faint~ =P
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    Robinson Crusoe, yes, indeed it was quite young.. but i see i have 2 other readers(borneo falcon & brenda) who had their first crushes at that age too, or perhaps even younger.. hehe...

    yeah, crushes drive people crazy, and everything comes crushing... and Lee Hom... how can anyone not have a crush on him?
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    Dann, (answer as above) + don't sweat lar.. Wang Lee Hom nice wat... so charming..
    p/s: bed-time story end liao lar... what tergendala pulak, pengsan i!
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    Borneo Falcon,
    thanks for sharing ^_^
    Primary 3 to Primary 6, quite long also for a kid... you tried all kind of things to get her attention? what did you do? share lar... *story* *story* =P
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    Yee Ming,
    gee, i didn't realize that... don't sweat lar... hehe.. eh, i suddenly realised that you are also a 'wong' eh! (now you can sweat) haha!
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    shinLoo,
    actually, i did told you all before de.. remember the trip to PD and we played truth or dare?? i guess you must have forgotten.. well, i guess i didn't go to the details... but yeah, i told you before leh....
    maybe last time, you're right, i don't talk much about them.. i also don't know why.. maybe i don't want ppl to think i'm like so silly kua....
    anyway, i learnt that when you can talk bout things, it means you have detached all the silly emotions and all..
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    Brenda, you had a crush at that young age too? share with me bout it lar.. hehe..
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    boonLee, (answered as above) + you seriously watched too many Korean movies.. what [who knows, he might blog too] pulak? faint~ and don't you ever try goggling for me..

    you talk about me, how bout your XXXX?? you don't even need goggle!
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    Sook Jiuan, (answered as above) + don't feel cheated lar.... Lee Hom so cute wat.... i should have put Jay Chow's picture also, hehe... perhaps, it would surprise you even better, hee.....
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    Michelle, wa... don't scare me lar.. maybe i shouldn't have mention the name....hmm... aiyur, this world got so many kevin... it's just a crush after all.... and you had 2 at nine! hehe... how was it? ;)

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  11. kevin wong?
    wow.....
    ur story is juz like those in the movie....
    really romantic...
    *bling* *bling*
    yaya...must go for him...
    at least see what he had become....
    maybe married? maybe become uncle?
    haha....might be prince charming as well....
    go for him lar...
    recently, since u started crushed post, been remind me about THE BEST, start to getting his news ad...see how he is now...
    hoho...
    first crush? i think i can't really remember.....
    but do remember bout first kissed by a boy at my standard one...is kissed by...not first kiss lar...
    hoho..... :P

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  12. im sing, what movie worrr.. bling your head lar! =P
    you CANNOT spread the fantasies and dreamy thoughts to me one, CANNOT! i will fight them, USH~~
    shit, i'm becoming more and more 'im sing' each day.... SAVE MEEEEeeeeEE...

    maybe married? maybe become uncle? maybe father of 2 sons? maybe gay? -haha!

    your definition of kisses also very detail, huh? first kiss, last kiss, not kisses? no?

    you have the news of THE BEST? got picture? hehe.. i wonder how is he like..

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  13. Shin Yin ~ I can't deny that I love Korean dramas .. lol..
    But your case is quite 'Korean' though :)
    Don't you feel curious about him now?
    I really *hope* you will be meeting him one day ... *hope* ... *hope*... =D

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  14. sook jiuan, so you feel curious of your first crush? would you meet up with him? actually, i have too many crushes... hehe...

    i wanna meet wang lee hom again... last time i remember, when i meet up and shake his hands, i think my heart almost stopped.. haha!

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  15. hahah was fun! no doubt! :P
    guess u enjoyed to right being with ur crush...
    hahah
    mine better ending..we 3 still talk suprisngly and we are close buddies!!

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  16. glad to hear that ^^
    i think those days were fun~
    i missed being a kid again..
    the days where responsible is a none existence vocabulary...

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  17. hey, im tht random girl frm russia who commented on the 'banana' post.
    you know what... wang lee hom initially wanted to follow his dad's/some family thingy which i can't recollect into the medical line! yeah, i was crazy enough to research his background like tht...
    :D
    his brother is cute too... he's in MIT!
    okla, must get back to reality..
    we can all dream la..:)

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  18. elaine,
    *high fives* Wang Lee Hom is so lengjai... hehe...
    yeah, i know that most of his family members are doctors and pharmacies, and that his bro is a dr.. but i didn't know he's in MIT!!

    you got his picture??

    hehe... and now i'm daydreaming again.. save me~

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  19. no no, he has 2 brothers.. if i'm not mistaken, the younger one is i MIT, the older one is a dr.
    go google wang lee kai ;) he's not as handsome as his bro but... hehe.. i guess i just have the inclination towards THAT kind of look in guys.nyeknyeknyek.
    and they're all so GIFTED!!

    WAKE UP WAKE UP!!! *splashes icy cold water on the both of us*

    unfortunately, being in the medical line means we will never cross paths with lee hom.

    ^-^

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  20. i've just goggled it and found Lee Kai's impressive resume:

    - Part of the USA Mathematical Olympiad team
    - The Vice-Persident of the New York State Junior Classical League
    - Scored a perfect score on the New York Mathematics League Competition
    - 2003 Presidential State Scholar.
    - The "Mens sana in corpore san" award for highest overall achievement at the 2001 New York State Latin Convention
    - 40 other Latin awards
    - One of only 24 students across the Nation to to receive 2002 Siemens Awards for advanced placement in college.
    - National Merit Finalist
    - United States of America Mathematical Olympiad State qualifier
    - 3rd place in the state of NY for CONTINENTAL CHESS ASSOCIATION
    - Second highest math score in New York State on the Johns Hopkins University Talent Search

    no wonder you like him! hehe... and his eldest bro is Lee-De..

    but i think, i'm still faithful to LeeHom,... wahaha.. (like die hard fan pulak)

    now i'll never wake up~ *nyek*

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  21. hahahha, now we're starting to sound like crazy teenage fans... ohoho, escaping from the medical world is just what we need... :P

    *feeling generous* yeah, i don't mind, you can take lee hom, i'll be equally satisfied with lee kai.. MUAHAHAHA.. XD

    omg the brains in tht family.... maths, medicine and music!!!! the 3Ms!!!!!!!!
    (these would be great genetic traits, if ever inherited... *deep in thought*)

    HAHHAHA. omg. we. should. get. back. to. reality.
    *sobs*

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  22. wahaha!!! LoLz... i can't stop laughing....

    the 3Ms, huh? if i observe closely, very closely, we are not TOO far away from the 3Ms also wat.. i mean, we are doing Medicine.. we are good at Maths, come on, Maths is the only subject we can score without studying.. (although we hardly did any since med school).. and Music.. well, i like music, i can play music... haha!! Lee Hom and i are so compatible, la-la-la~ *skips happily* (~shinyin's day-dreaming~)

    so, what you going to do? seduce Lee Kai, marry him, have kids, and hopefully your kids will have the 3Ms, too??? (haha! now i sound like a crazy teenager!)

    *reality seemed so far away, i liked fantasy land* ~

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  23. hahaha okay we've got to stop before obsession brings us to delusions and hallucinations...yes we do have the 3Ms...although i think my 3 Ms are rather really really mini 3Ms.. hehe

    (well let's just say i wouldn't mind being mrs wang....)
    XP

    call hospital bahagia!!

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  24. mrs wang??? you mrs wang lee kai, me mrs wang lee hom??? then we ma become relatives??? hehe.... delusions and hallucinations~~ we both need anti-psychotic now.. hoho~ having amourous delusions and gradiosity.. lalalalala~~~

    p/s: happi NIU year! =)

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  25. lols....
    yeah, what's this i heard about the increase in mental instability among medical students/house officers..?

    ohoho, blame the profession, we are being pushed over the edge!!

    HAPPY cnY to you too!!!!
    (hey when we're related, we'll be able to have reunion dinners together... ^-^)

    nyahahhahahah~

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  26. haha! you caught me at 'reunion dinner'.. Lolz... i can't stop laughing.. i'm running out of ideas... can't think of anything more chun to say..

    hey, when will you be back from russia?? we should meet up someday... together, we can continue fantasying~ ^^

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