Poll Results : Love

Finally, the poll results for my readers:

Q1: Do YOU believe in LOVE??
90% of my readers believe in Love.. that's a good thing right.. there are however 9% of readers, which all of them are girls, who didn't believe in love... i would add a continuous question: like why? why do you believe in love? and why did you not believe in love?? have you been hurt so badly that you never thought you could love again?? or do you think love is all made up??

If you note closely, all the guys actually believed in love..

Prof T Maniam, my lecturer once said: LOVE is a delusion. To treat this delusion, you need to induce acute psychosis, in which results in getting married. After that, you will fall back to reality... (i know, it's a cold subtle joke, if you get what i mean..)

Q2: Do you agree that all men (or the majority of men) are cheaters?
Interestingly, more than half (53%) of my readers thinks that men are cheaters. Another strong 40% of the population (which were all men), stood up for their species, claiming: not all men are cheaters. If calculate further, you can see that 82% of the girls (28x100/34) thinks that all men are cheaters while 61% of the guys disagrees with this.

Q3: If your other half cheats on you, will you forgive him/her?
Looking at this pattern, you can see that if you are a girl, and you cheat, you have 43% (28x100/65) chances to be forgiven.
However, if you are a guy, and you cheat, you have 17.7 % (6x100/34) chance to be forgiven.
So, bottom line, don't cheat lar.. even more when you are a guy.... however tempting the fruits of your neighbor may be, however seducing is the girl next door...

Q4: Have you ever cheated before?
WOW! this poll surprised me the most! 39% of guys (25/65) cheated before, at some point of their lives.. and i'm talking about guys who reads 'serious' blog like mine, who are assumingly less of a playboy? no, i'm not expecting a clean zero statistic, with everyone claiming that they have never cheater before.. but see, guys do cheat, and 39% already cheated before the age of 30 (assuming that the majority of my readers are 30 and below)... and these are the data of people who dares to admit it...
girls, don't laugh, as 8% (3/34) of the girls cheats too. when i count down further to the final statistic, the 3% of girl cheaters take account for ONE person. so, you know who you are la.. hehe...

Q5: If love is blind, hurtful and full of lies, would you still choose to love?
64% of the readers say YES. Which i think is not too bad. When break down further, 72% of the guys and 55% of girls says YES.

Well, the good thing is, love is NOT hurtful and full of lies.... sometimes, we meet people who made us believe that it is so...

I would like to end this post, with 3 love letters by the infamous Classical music composer, Ludwig Van Beethoven. He was one of the composers who became deaf, yet able to listen the music in his head. He wrote numberous famous symphonies, sonatas, string quartets, concertos etc, of which one of them i personally liked was Moonlight Sonata. You'll probably known of Fur Elise too.

You would have probably heard about the third letter #3, if you watch Sex& the City, as it was is the letter Mr Big quotes to Carrie.

Beethoven - Love Letters of Great Men : Letter #1

July 6, in the morning

My angel, my all, my very self - Only a few words today and at that with pencil (with yours) - Not till tomorrow will my lodgings be definitely determined upon - what a useless waste of time - Why this deep sorrow when necessity speaks - can our love endure except through sacrifices, through not demanding everything from one another; can you change the fact that you are not wholly mine, I not wholly thine - Oh God, look out into the beauties of nature and comfort your heart with that which must be - Love demands everything and that very justly - thus it is to me with you, and to your with me. But you forget so easily that I must live for me and for you; if we were wholly united you would feel the pain of it as little as I - My journey was a fearful one; I did not reach here until 4 o'clock yesterday morning. Lacking horses the post-coach chose another route, but what an awful one; at the stage before the last I was warned not to travel at night; I was made fearful of a forest, but that only made me the more eager - and I was wrong. The coach must needs break down on the wretched road, a bottomless mud road. Without such postilions as I had with me I should have remained stuck in the road. Esterhazy, traveling the usual road here, had the same fate with eight horses that I had with four - Yet I got some pleasure out of it, as I always do when I successfully overcome difficulties - Now a quick change to things internal from things external. We shall surely see each other soon; moreover, today I cannot share with you the thoughts I have had during these last few days touching my own life - If our hearts were always close together, I would have none of these. My heart is full of so many things to say to you - ah - there are moments when I feel that speech amounts to nothing at all - Cheer up - remain my true, my only treasure, my all as I am yours. The gods must send us the rest, what for us must and shall be -

Your faithful LUDWIG.

Beethoven - Love Letters of Great Men: Letter #2

Evening, Monday, July 6

You are suffering, my dearest creature - only now have I learned that letters must be posted very early in the morning on Mondays to Thursdays - the only days on which the mail-coach goes from here to K. - You are suffering - Ah, wherever I am, there you are also - I will arrange it with you and me that I can live with you. What a life!!! thus!!! without you - pursued by the goodness of mankind hither and thither - which I as little want to deserve as I deserve it - Humility of man towards man - it pains me - and when I consider myself in relation to the universe, what am I and what is He - whom we call the greatest - and yet - herein lies the divine in man - I weep when I reflect that you will probably not receive the first report from me until Saturday - Much as you love me - I love you more - But do not ever conceal yourself from me - good night - As I am taking the baths I must go to bed - Oh God - so near! so far! Is not our love truly a heavenly structure, and also as firm as the vault of heaven?

Beethoven - Love Letters of Great Men: Letter #3

Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

These letters were found in Beethoven's desk after he died. They were not addressed to anybody, so it is impossible to know who he was writing to. Historians feel they were written to a married woman who he loved dearly, and who was leaving the city at the time of these letters.

So sad.... she didn't received the letters.... *sob* *sob*...

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The georgraphically blind: Letters of Great Men

Doctors are human too, not God..

i was surprised to see this article on the Headlines of The Star, this morning..... seriously, i wonder where does Tan Sri gets his data... and base on what parameters do he want to screen the students? MMSE? personality test??

and i think, sometimes, they tend to forget that doctors are human too, not God.... under such circumstances; not just the work load and ridiculously long on-call hours, these doctors are not just physically but also emotionally, mentally and spiritually challenged... knowing that you have done your very best, yet you could not help the patient further... losing hope, seeing deaths,... tears and disappointments,.. under such circumstances, anyone with a heart may break... many people falls into depression with MDD(Major Depressive Disorder)... should we deny this group of people treatment and the chance to live their dreams?

more importantly is when people break, they should be allowed a moment to weap, learn, heal, recover and rise again.. i have known doctors, good doctors, who had psychiatry illnesses like MDD and general anxiety, yet, having symptoms under controlled, they make a great doctor...

and i believe that medical school is just a small part of life, if we cannot handle the stress in med school, the future would be very difficult for us... passing exams is not the hardest thing in medical school, but rather, learning and obtaining as much skills, knowledge and wisdom as possible within these 5 years, so that we can use them to help our patients, heal illnesses, save lives - that is perhaps an even tougher thing to do...

give your very best for each patient..

do your best, and let God do the rest...

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The Article from The Star:

Sunday November 30, 2008

At least five doctors to suffer from mental woes every month

By M. KRISHNAMOORTHY

KUALA LUMPUR: Every month, at least five doctors are found to be suffering from mental illnesses, director-general of health Tan Sri Dr Mohd Ismail Merican said.
He said these doctors were either psychotic or neurotic but still managed to get into medical schools because these schools were not screening students meticulously enough.
“When the doctors complete their two-year housemanship and their applications are submitted for registration with the Malaysian Medical Council (MMC), they fail to get registered.
“Their supervisors do not certify them as fit to be registered because of indiscipline and poor attitude arising from mental health problems.
“The mental cases range from psychotic to neurotic. Psychotic cases include delusions and hallucinations, and neurotic behaviour includes anxiety, fear and anger due to the competitive environment,” said Dr Ismail.
These medical graduates, totalling about 60 cases a year, are unable to cope with their housemanship as they may have been pressured by their parents to take up medicine.
Dr Ismail said it was disheartening to note this emerging trend due to an inefficient selection process, adding that the mental cases were referred to the Medical Review Panel (MRP).
Since many of these graduates have spent a lot of money on their medical education, the MRP may extend their housemanship and at the same time send them for psychiatric treatment.
“In the event they are assigned to work, they will be thoroughly supervised and counselled by experts and given light duties until their mental condition improves.
“I am not so sure whether we can identify those with attitude problems during an interview unless such problems are obvious,” Dr Ismail said at a forum on Training Future Doctors: Have we got it right?”
About 2,000 medical doctors are registered annually from 21 local medical schools and 400 recognised schools overseas.
Different medical schools around the world have different selection criteria for their students, Dr Ismail said.
However, he said that the ministry was also planning some form of examination to check their attitude, knowledge and experience after they complete their final examination.
Most of the mentally ill students, he said, could have undergone pressure and depression while studying and faced difficulty in coping in a hospital environment.
The other weakness was a lack of proficiency in the English language.
Higher Education director-general Prof Datuk Dr Radin Umar Radin Sohadi said the ministry was currently reviewing universities’ curricula to ensure high standards in medical education and training for doctors.
“Uppermost on our minds will be the safety and well-being of patients,” he said.

kei tak sek's mango lo

I craving for KTS's mango lo~~~ wawa~~....
okay, maybe that's not a very good opening line for a food review....
anyway, i'll like to recommend one of my favorite desserts : tada~
seriously, it's the best, ever!
one of my friend said that when i eat this, like happy till wanna cry... haha!!
but really, you should try it....
unfortunately, the branch near times sq had been closed down...
shifted to somewhere near low yat, i heard,.. will go food hunting after exam ^^

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will be closing the poll soon... any ideas for the next poll?

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Personality test (1)

Today, i have for you a personality test, Enjoy~

TEST NO. 1

THE THIRD EYE :

If you could have the third eye on your body, where would you put it on?

1) your head

2) your heart

3) your back

4) your hand

HERE IS THE ANALYSIS

1) You have no respect to your lover, instead, you often exploit him/her. As far as love is concerned, you are too QUICK. You easily fall in love with someone and leave him/her right away when you get bored.

2) Since you are scared of being cheated by the others or not wanting to be disappointed again, you, therefore seem to be contented with your unrequited love.

3) It takes you a long time and big effort before falling in love with someone. But, once you are in love, you will love him/her with all your heart,sincerely and forever

4) It is hard for you to get deeply involved with someone.Most of your relationships are just more than friends but less than lovers.
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TEST NO. 2

WHAT KIND OF CHAIR DO YOU PREFER? :

Your selection of the chair can tell you the type of person you are.

1) Cloth covered

2) Leather covered

3) Wood

4) Cushioned

5) One with a built-in massager

HERE IS THE ANALYSIS :

1)You want your partner (girlfriend/boyfriend) to be together with you always, no matter when or where.

2)You want your partner (girlfriend/boyfriend) to be more open with you about himself/herself.

3)You want your partner (girlfriend/boyfriend) to take more care of his/her dress and manner.

4)You want your partner (girlfriend/boyfriend) to be a little bit more relaxed, calm and composed.

5) One with built-in massager. You want your partner (girlfriend/boyfriend) to do more for you.

The message behind the question:

A chair is for sitting on. If you choose to sit on certain chair,you

have no suspicions or distrust towards it. This is the same psychology

present in our relationship with the people we like. In other words, the

qualities you look for in a chair are similar to the qualities you look

for in a partner.
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TEST NO. 3

WHY DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE?

** 1 9 5 0 **

What is your first thought when you saw the above number?

1) Year

2) Phone number

3) Money

4) Combination code in a locker room

HERE IS THE ANALYSIS :

1) You think he/she is very smart one….you love his/her brain.

2) You love his/her personality….Everything he/she does is beautiful.

3) Let’s face it…..you love his/her money.

4) You love his/her appearance….you like a good looking person .
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TEST NO. 4

THE CAVE YOU WANT TO VISIT….

You decided to go for a cave tour. What kind of caves do you want to visit?

1) Cave with a narrow entrance but a wide exit.

2) Cave with a same space of entrance and exit.

3) Cave with a wide entrance but a narrow exit.

HERE IS THE ANALYSIS :

The philosophy behind this test indicates how you spend your money……

1) You easily spend your money much more than what you earn.

2) You keep balance between the money you can earn and the money you spend.

3) Stingy you! Though you have earned a lot of money but you hardly spend it off.
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TEST NO. 5

WHEN WILL YOU GET MARRIED?

There is a cake with plenty of room to put many more candles on it. How many more candles do you want to put on the cake?

1) One

2) Two

3) Three or four

4) More than five

HERE IS THE ANALYSIS :

1) Wow! You seem wanting to get married as soon as possible.You may get married at the age of 20 or right after you have finished your education.

2) You want to be married a little sooner than the other.However,you want your marriage to be agreed and pleased by the others.

3) You want to enjoy your youngster life as long as possible.So you don’t want to be married too soon. You may get married when you are over 25 even you already have your steady loved one.

4) You are full of curiosity. You are curious about everything.You want to travel and accumulate your experience more and more.You want to prove yourself with the challenging work.You may enjoy your unmarried life until you are 30 or over even you have had so many lovers by then.
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TEST NO. 6

A NEW PLANT….

Noticing a new plant pop up from the ground, what is your first thought?

1) Glad and want it to grow quickly.

2) Be careful.Don’t step on it.

3) Oh!Will it give flowers?

4) Thank God!Many thanks to you,God,for its growth.

5) All right! No more watering!

This test indicates your attitude towards your parents….

1) You don’t want your parents to interfere whatever you are doing.

2) You feel grateful to your parents for bringing you up and making you a nice person.

3) You rely on your parents so much and want them to be always close to you.

4) You have your sincere thanks to your parents.

5) You want to be self-survived as soon as possible.

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Everything I do - Bryan Adams

(here's the song lyrics you requested ^^- of the song playing at the background... i liked this sing too!)

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

so touched today :)

i sooooo moved and touched today... because ka fei and honey posted English translation in their blog for me!! yeay! finally, i can read their blogs liao! yippie! im sing tried to blog in English too, but i think she gave up half way.. hehe...

confessions of a medical student #45 : i can't read Chinese.... i know, you can go ahead and laugh, call me banana of whatever names you can think of... sigh... condemn me for not knowing the Chinese language... it's not the first time, anyway... you know, maybe i didn't had the luxury of attending a Chinese primary school,.. there's so many nice Chinese books i would love to read, if i could... and those Chinese songs i had to learn and memorize by heart... going to the karaoke but not able to sing Chinese songs... disappointed when some Korean/Japanese movies only have Chinese subtitles... and when you go to the Chinese food stall, being unable to read the food menu, you kindly ask the hawker what he have, and he would give you a cruel 'can't-you-read?' stare... eventually, i learn to figure out a few words... once i told my friend that if he sees a single syllable word which is super hard to write, it's indefinitely porridge... and susan just laughed out loud... haha!.... but seriously, it's true and logical right?? oh well... and sometimes, sometimes, it does feel painful, almost stabbing, when being segregated by your very own race.. sigh.. i shall not elaborate on the feelings... don't wanna get too emo today...

but of course, there were not too bad days too... i do remember clearly, when i was attending a camp in form one, a Chinese Language Society Camp, (i don't know how shinLoo successfully talk me into attending the camp), but anyway, it was really hard for me at first... then i remember, there was this senior committee, Ah Fatt, who actually translated every activity/announcement during the entire camp, (every single word!),despite me being the ONLY one who doesn't know much Chinese.... so nice, right?? and, by the way, the camp was fun! and i was glad shinloo dragged me along :)

and there were those really bad times too, like the first day i stepped into UKM, during orientation week, i could not understand why did they liked to separate the races, and the Chinese would be grouped together for some 'ethical talks'.. and when the senior (forgotten his name) asked 'who do not know Mandarin, raise your hands' - which i eagerly did, and despite the few of us, i think about 10 of us, who raised our hands, the senior just nod with a 'okay, just-a-minority' look, and said 'ask your friend next to you to translate to you'.. and continue talking (in Chinese)... my heart literally break that day, how i missed home so much....

i think, the worse thing was, i innocently grew up, believing that about half the Chinese population in Malaysia don't know Chinese as well... i thought not knowing Chinese was a norm... because in Seremban, there was King George V, St Paul, Convent, ACS.... while as for Chinese School, there were just Chan Wa and Chung Hua High School.... and SMK Bukit Mewah, of course... so, i grew up with people who spoke English... i grew up believing that everyone does that too... it was only in university that i realized the harsh reality...

okay, shinyin, don't get too emo... i did finally picked up some Chinese along the way... thanks to my housemates and friends who helped me all the way... i know, stopping you all at mid-sentence with a blur look can sometimes be irritating... hehe..... do bear with me...

anyway, thanks a lot, my friends!! thank you for spending the time and effort... thanks a million to ka fei, honey and scent for the translation on your blogs, and thanks a lot to all my friends who helped me cope with the language barrier and cultural shock..... i really, Really, REALLY appreciate it.. and this blogpost is dedicated to you all~ *muaks*

p/s: learning a bit of Chinese in university, is beneficial too, it comes in handy when clerking patients, especially really old patients who had poor command in BahasaMelayu and English.. i learned terms like Prostate cancer, Anemia, Breast Cancer, Cyst, schizophenia, MDD, etc in Mandarin and Cantonese... thanks to my friends who patiently taught me well ^^