Once upon a time, life was so busy, hectic, in need of space. Now,when the space is here, it is so intense, it enguffs the soul, it suffocates... What remained is emptiness and emptiness alone. The map has lost its printings, the arrow bent indecisively, the signages fades away, and you can't find the ending nor the starting point. I doubt there is any. Do you still call it day when the sun has lost her shine? the lion lost his mane, the fire burns endlessly. Your life history is nothing but a blank sheet of paper.They said everything happens for a reason,.. is there a reason called 'no reason at all'? They said everything can be explained, rationalized. Sometimes, it's easier to think that it's meant to be, God's will... Not knowing priorities, not having a plan, avoiding decisions don't help, procrastination worsen things. I will learn to let go, to say 'no', to carry on...
(March 21, 2007 at 05:03 AM)
I wish, I've already learned how to let go, to say 'no', to carry on..
ReplyDeleteSigh.
But I'm still the same old me. Never learn, won't say 'no' and I'm still at the same place that I was back then..
And hey, don't go through my previous/earlier entry like I did. They're kinda depressing :)
ReplyDeleteI like it more when you're personal, instead of general.
i guess, no matter how many lessons we go through, those life lessons, somehow, we still never learn...
ReplyDeleteyou know what? i have to agree.. when reading back previous posts, it's very sad... with emotions hidden within the layers and layers of words... sometimes, part of our blog is like an online diary... reading back, brings back all the emotions, sometimes the pain...
there was once, i read back my diary (my written, not online diary)... and it made me cry all over again..
diary should never be re-read.. the emotions is too overwhelming to bear.. we can't breathe.. it's just leave it at that corner and never see it again....
i felt i stopped blogging bout personal things.. and switch to more general stuffs.. dunno why..