COAMS #25- The 5 Stages Of Dying

(October 18, 2006 at 08:16 AM)

5 stages of dying
DENIAL

ANGER

BARGAINING

DEPRESSION

ACCEPTANCE

at medical school, i was told that the above are the 5 stages of dying,.. but, i personally think that it applies to our everyday life...

i remember Morrie once said(in Tuesday with Morrie by Mitch Albom) - it is okay to feel sad. allow yourself to fully experience the depression, and then get over it. sometimes, i wake up in the morning feeling sad, but i only allow an hour of sadness and nothing more...- well, not exactly a quote, but more or less so...

but sometimes, we tend to get stuck in the depression stage for a very very long time... and we try to aviod the feelings, push them away... i guess, unless we allow depression to penetrate fully, we will never reach acceptance, and the cycle repeats itself...


Footnotes: Tuesday with Morrie is a novel by Mitch Albom which i highly recommand! it's about his palliative journey in facing death.. journey to the coffin... how he faced the days as he withers,.. yet managed to touch so many hearts and changed so many lives... a teacher whose works live forever...

COAMS #23- if success has an entry fee, the cost is total commitment (Denis Waitley)

(September 21, 2006 at 03:47 AM)

if success has an entry fee, the cost is total commitment (Denis Waitley)

life over here is,.. ermm.. well...

i have exams next monday and wednesday, you guys really have to pray for me lehh... it's driving me mad... i'm desperate for a good case, a good examiner, and a easy pass... i'm so desperate that i made a deal with God to go on a 3-day vegetarian diet if i pass.. one week if i get good results... which is a big deal for me, coz i don't really fancy veggies... in fact, i hate green leafy stuffs!

btw, did i tell you that my mum actually called me to tell me study facing the east? better feng shui, she said.. perhaps that explains why i'm not getting it!

anyway, i have been panicking over exams for the past few weeks,.. that somehow, i felt that i have exhausted myself... at one point, i just felt like , hey, i don't wanna give a damn... and watching [the click] certainly didn't help... i thought it would improve my mood, you know, with the comedy and all... but i just felt like packing all my stuffs and go straight home.. forget about exams and all, CAN I?

i shall make this my last blog for me to complain over exams,.. it's exhausting and i guess it's about time i simply grow out of it and blog bout other meaningful thing... till then, oh well...

i'll be back next week, have half a week break,.. very very short break,... who's back besides audrey? yeah, audrey, i'm sorry to hear bout pipi... don't worry, she's just closer to God...

hey people, come back for the weekend la! it's hard to gather people nowadays, i don't know why... tight schedules, commitments, distance increases over time... even the mails and messages reduces over time.. oh well, who can i blame?

life goes on...

oh yes, pong, nice to hear that you are taking creative writing...i'm so jealous... no, please don't remind me of those classic 'rain' stuff..haha!! remember your classic 'white' story? those were the days... i feel like writing too, but somehow, couldn't.. don't know why... you know what? i actually missed English classes... no, not Pn Chu's class la.. but i guess i missed Mrs Lim Swee Boon and Mr Fredderick.. missed writing, having English games, and doing literature...even spelling is fun with Mr Fredderick! those were the days...

if success has an entry fee, the cost is total commitment (Denis Waitley)

am i ready to commit? are you ready to commit?

COAMS #22- keep running

(September 15, 2006 at 02:35 AM)

i woke up today wondering,
gee, WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO MY LIFE?
it the kinda feeling,..
being out of control,
totally losing it..
being a slave to your books and EXAMS-the almighty...
'study or die, study or die, study or die'...
feeling guilty spending time on the little things you once like..
the air is unusually dense,
the wards are unusually foreign,
you lost the sense of belonging,
but there's no escape,
it's like running in a dark tunnel,
you can't see what's happening,
don't know what to do,
only having a glimpse of light in front,
and survival instinct tells you to keep running...
keep running, keep running...

i hate exams

i hate exams

i hate exams

i hate exams

and i really do...

it's really tiring, you know

a cycle that never ends

and you wonder

will i ever exhauste myself

and you question

am i ever strong enough

is this what i really what

what do i really what?

questions left unanswered

and the cycle repeats itself

i hate exams

i hate exams

i hate exams

oh boy, how i hate exams!

COAMS #21- Unspoken Words...

(August 26, 2006 at 10:59 AM)

when so little can be said, yet so much could be understood...

i clerked a deaf and mute patient this morning it was tough and challenging but he was really nice and had so much patience we had to communicate via a piece of paper it was not easy for me you see, he had a limited english vocabulary i on the other hand, cannot write chinese i am amaze of how much we can communicated, even without voices... just writings and body language it was an unusual experience nothing is impossible, my friend... look forward to visiting him again on monday i wish to learn hand language some day....

bad luck #6!

(August 20, 2006 at 12:49 AM)

This had indeed INDEED INDEED be my UNLUCKI-EST week!!!

Guess what? Remember, I once said that my cell phone is officially DEAD?? Well, my friend was so nice to lend me hers… the thing is, on my way home from Bandar Tasik Selatan Commuter Station to Seremban, her phone (which I borrowed) got stolen!! Darn those PICKPOCKETS!!

aarrrgGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


what the HELL is happening with my LIFE!!!!!!!!!!??????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wonder whether does it has anything to do with it being the seventh month of the Chinese calendar…


i went to this siamist temple 2 days ago, it gives me a feeling of serenity....


need to get new phone.... any recommadation?? considering SE k700i...

i heard the AP is around rm900,.. but according to boonlee, around rm500+ also can find ... hmm.. must really look around....

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