23.07.2009
I lived in a world of lies.
Deceptions.
And so, I wore a mask today.
Hoping that it would hide all emotions.
Secrets.
Hoping to numbed those feelings.
To shadow them away,
The slightest clue, the minute hint,
Perhaps, everything.
It had not been raining for quite a while.
Until today.
They said that one will grow stronger with time.
I doubt I’ll ever will.
The emotions, greater than what my heart is able to contain.
The burden, heavier that what I can shoulder.
No one told me it was going to me like this.
No one told me that I was to be less human.
I do not want to get used to seeing this,
To get used to being less emotional,
To be accustomed to seeing illnesss, disease, deaths and loss,
When hopes shattered, love is lost,
And we could not even say that we had done our very best,
I learnt 3 new words:
1. FATE
2. LIMITATION
3. PURE UNLUCKYNESS
hati mau kuat!
ReplyDeletehey... don't give up...
ReplyDeletego watch God Hand Teru japanese ER series...
it shows a doctor with the capability of saving lives... no one died in his hands... not even once.
Hey shinyin
ReplyDeleteBe strong......I guess seeing disease, death , illness are part & parcel of being a doctor...As you said, doctors are humans as well & not God...I think you'll be a good doctor & specialist in time to come...
i agree with u.... since my clinical, i think i had become less human.
ReplyDeletei grew up thinking that this is the most pure n saint job in da whole world.
but sometimes we even laugh in front of a dying patient (maybe u r not like dat)
but we can't let our emotions ruin our life. the patient's family may mourn after dead. but we must keep working. there are lots of ups and downs in a doctor's life. and it is crucial to keep our strength.
shinyin dear, did you cried again?
ReplyDeletebe strong girl... don't let work take over you..
you have a long path ahead...
you are stronger than you think...
don't let it rain again ya...
i'll bring out the sun... ^^