Thursday, June 23, 2011

a fallen star

There are things in life,
Things that kept me wondering…
Playing in my mind,
Like a roller coaster,
Juggling ideas, delusions, emotions….

The world is a small world,
A small small world,
And God has his plan, he must have had!
Sometimes, I just wished I knew,
i wished i could comprehend...

There are things I like to forget, 
(corrections: I WANT to forget, i mean, i NEED to forget)
Questions unanswered, Yet, I dare not ask,
I hung up the phone,
I knew the answer will be too painful to bear.
In the end,
It is just me,
Me and my stupidity…

Emotions is a dumb thing,
I guess,
When the heart overcomes the mind…

I knew it was all a delusion,
Yet, God knows why am I still holding on,
Holding onto something that does not exist in the first place.
I needed to end this,
To achieve full insight,
Understanding and enlightenment…

I wished those things would not matter that much,
I wished it will all go away,
I wished I would never had to face it,
I hid them in a box, a dark, dark box,
At the corner of my mind,
Yet somehow, like I said, this is a small small world,
With many many co-incidents,
I see myself in the mirror,
I wished it was someone else,
I wished it was somewhere else,
Then again,
God had to fool me again…

Please let me go, please let me live in peace…
Please tell me that it'll all go away, and everything will be fine...


  1. hye doctor. i've been following your blog for quite a while. your words always inspire me to be more determined, especially when i decided to follow your footsteps.

    keep writing and looking forward for more info on your housemen routine! and please, have a visit to my blog too yaa! thanks :)

  2. Dear Nabila,
    i am glad that you find this blog somewhat inspiring, as most of the time, i am just sharing my thoughts and feelings...

    oh yes, congratulations on PILN!! take time to decide, whether to pursue your career as a Doctor,.. think about it, sleep on it... as it is not just any profession,.. it comes with hardship and yes, sacrifices along the way... and if you still decide to continue in this line, celebrate the magic of medicine with me... endure and overcome the challenges that makes us stronger,.. and in the end, believe, believe that you can make a difference... this is indeed a very noble profession...

    take care and all the best!


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Today, i heard a story which was not a story of falling...
of living in the dark end of winter turmoil..
instead, it was a love story..
of a couple who did not live happily ever after...
but they live, loving each other..